Mine (Ashtray X Black Fem Reader )

Your life

Rue narrating

Y/n my cousin never had the best life had a shitty mother and no dad her dad was always around until her mom got into heavy drinking and her dad left she desperately wanted her dad to take her with him but he couldn't effort to take care of her her mom would come home most nights drunk Y/n would be in her room crying cause of how drunk her mom was she was scared she called my mom most nights but my mom couldn't do anything that was until Y/ns mom had a affair and had another child her mom would put all her attention on Grace
Y/ns new little sister and wouldn't even care for Y/n most nights Y/n and her mom spent time fighting

Flash back

"DONT YOU DARE TALK TO ME LIKE THAT Y/N, YOUR SUCH A BITCH DISRESPECTFUL TO YOUR OWN MOTHER" Your mom yells

"DO YOU EVEN FUCKING HEAR THE WORDS COMING OUT YOUR MOUTH RIGH NOW?. YOUR CALLING ME A BITCH FOR SAYING YOU DON'T GIVE ME ANY ATTENTION BECAUSE YOU FUCKING DONT" I yell back

"I GIVE YOU ATTENTION YOUR JUST SO UNGRATEFUL TO NOTICE BECAUSE YOUR TO BUSY BEING A WHORE"Your mom yells

"IM A WHORE?,IM A FUCKING WHORE. AT LEAST I DONT COME HOME DRUNK EVERY FUCKING NIGHT SCARING MY OWN CHILDREN"

your mom slaps you

"Get your shit and get the hell out" your mom says stepping over you"

You run upstairs to pack your stuff

"Hi sissy,where are you going"Grace asks

"Im leaving,Okay? I can't come back this time"

"But why sissy"Grace asks

"Because mommy is mad okay.but I promise ill be back for you okay"

"But sissy I don't want to be alone with mommy she scares me and when she does you protect me because you love me. Don't you love me anymore?" She asks

"Yes Grace I will always love you okay but I can't take you with me"You say while tears run down your cheek

Y/n
Got deja vù she thought it sounded familiar
Like it was from her dad when he said he couldn't take her with him

"But why sissy?"She asks

"I can't explain but I promise I will come back for you,Okay? I love you very much" you say putting your hand on her cheek as her tears run down

"Ok sissy I love you,and ill wait for you to come back " she says hugging you

End of flash back

Then Grace ended up in foster care because her mom got drunk to the point were she was abusive and Y/n never even knew

Next day January 1st|12:30

"Hey rue want to go for a bike ride"I ask

"Yea hold on"Rue says

"Ok"I say

You wait like 15 minutes

"Ok I'm ready"Rue says

"What took you so long"I ask

"Just a problem with jules"

"Oh okay"I say a little worried

You guys start riding down the block

"Do you ever wonder what its like"Rue asks randomly

"What whats like"I ask confused

"Life."She says

"Yea, sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I had the perfect life and a mom and a dad but you can't have everything in life if its even real,I just feel like we're playing a game and when we die we see the real word."You say while looking forward while pedling

"Mmmm okay I wonder what life is like to if I wasn't high all the time"

"Is that why you asked?,is it because your high all the time"I say

"Yea,I just feel...numb."Rue says

"Mmmm,Do you ever think about being clean?"I ask curiously

"Yea,but its kinda hard"

"Okay"I say sorta understanding were shes coming from

You and rue see Cassie getting in a car

"I wonder who that is"You say looking over

"Oh thats nates car"Rue says

"Oh nate I've seen him around school"I say

"yea I've heard some bad things about him around school"

"Those bad things are true"Rue says

"We definitely are telling Maddy."I ask

"Hell yea"Rue says