why? -young royals

chapter 8

Wilhelm pov
I stood their speakless "h-how" was the only thing I managed to get out little giggel slipt form him

Pov simon
I let a fast giggle out I deeply inhaled ans I started explaining

--~flashback~--
After the choir I looked if I could see see Wilhelm I was pretty sure he wasn't gonna come cause of how he acted by breakfast I saw Kyle and brian standing by Walter and Henry this was my chance I was almost 100% sure he was  in their dorm so I would just sneak in their

As soon as I arrived I didn't see Malin standing outside of his door I though not much of it that woman also needed a break sometimes I walked in no Wilhelm I just wanted walk out untill something caught my attention a paper sticking out of a drawer I know it wasn't my business but I couldn't help myself I mean what could it hurt

I walked up to the drawer I took the paper the first word what caught my attention was "diagnose" a diagnose? For what? I immediately started reading as the more I read as more I started shaking after I was done reading it suddenly all made sense

Wilhelm was a bipolar I wanted to put paper back in the drawer but something in me told me that I better could keep the paper so I stuffed it into bag and walked out of the dorm my way to the music room.
--~end of flashback~--

As soon I ended my story I saw Wilhelm was crying and not a bit I wanted to apologise but he said something first "you're a fucking monster simon" I looked at him and I realised what I have done this wasn't me he came walking closer and he litterlay pulled the paper away for me and pushed me against wall and walked again up to me

"If you dare to tell this to fucking anyone I will make sure you end nowhere else then the street" I realised I wasn't talking to Wilhelm anymore I was talking to the crown prince of Sweden of all the ideas popped into my head I choose the stupidest one but if this worked it would get me far
(I'm bad at this please dont judge me☹)
I crashed my lips on his I though he would pulled away but he didn't he kissed me back but even harder the kiss got heater I could feel he wantend to do  a french kiss and I let him how longer this went on how more I wanted this no him but suddenly he let go

He balled up the paper and throw it into my face I looked at him confused tears started forming form his eyes again "you know exactly how to fuck with people feelings" I realised what I have done "this is not the boy I FELL INLOVE WITH IT" tears started forming form my eyes this time he was right all along I was the manic here not him "I'm so sorry Wilhelm" I mumbled he look angier then ever "sorry!? YOURE SORRY!?"

Form everything that could happend that moment this was the last thing I thought would have happend he started to have panic attack I didn't know what I should do so I just walked up to him "I am so sorry Wille" I started rubbing his hand but he immediately pulled away "leave me the FUCK ALONE " he said I gave him a last look and walked out of the room

I am a monster

(SO sorry for the short chapter☹)