"jihyo ah, lets hang out after school"i whispered to jihyo
"where?"
"just come with me, i've something to..."
"eoh, maja, 3 days, you are time over"
"hmm yah, i know"
"ok..just with me?"
"hmm" i said yess with hmm
I afraid to tell but ican't hide from her, will be hurt more when i dont tell
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"waahhh....jeongyeon aahh, its beutiful"
We are in the beach now, sit on sand beach waiting for sunset
"so bumpy,so tell me what want you tell before"
"i'll tell later just enjoy sunset, it's beutiful right,the wind, the light and sunset"
"hmm...lets take some picture"
Jihyo pull me to stand up and take some selca, the we laying down back on the sand
"jihyo ah, did you think about collage, what you want to be?
"hmm why talk about it now?"
"what's wrong about that. I just want we think seriously about our future"
"hmm.yyaahh..actually i still thinking, 80 % i want to be doctor, but need 20% more"
"i support you, i believe you will be great doctor, neurology or cardio"
"60 % neuro 40 % cardio"
"what about you jeong?"
"hmm...i think i'll mach with modeling"
"haha..i agree, but did you have others, for your genious brain?
"haha...still like always, neurologi, but i did not decide it, my father ask me to handle his busniss, but you know i've no passion on it"
"hmmm...just think more, we still have 1 year"
"right...."
"soo what want you say?"
"you are so unpatient jihyo ah.."
We enjoy sunset, i look at jihyo lovely face, my best friend face. I love her so much and i afraid i'll hurt her with what i will say
Now sun hide under sea, i've no reason to ignore jihyo.
We still laying down on the sand, look the sky from under
"jeongyeon ah, i love this, can we do it in future"
"ok, let do it again next time"i said when i sit up and look at jihyo to make she sit up to
"jihyo ah, i have something for you, close your eyes"
"haha...what is it, why you so nerd today you make me afraid"
"haha...ani, just close your eyes you will like it"
She close her eyes and i put necklace on her.
"done"
"wahhh..jeongyeon ahh..."
She touch neaklace with awkwark face, i know that, we are tsundere
Haha
"put it on me" i handing other box asked her to put on me
She take it and put on me
Then, she sit properly and face me, our knees touch each other, under night lighting and lamp on the beach i can feel pain in my cheest, i can see her eyes, she know something wrong with me
"jeongyeon ah, now tell me, stop act like this just tell me what's happen?"she realy realy know me well, she asked me and tears fall on her cheek
I hug her tihgtly
"i'm sory ji, i'm so sorry?"
"sorry for what, you have no mistake"
"i dont want to hurt you but,,, but maybe i will, i'm sorry i hurt you"
She loosen the hug and hold my face to make mo look at her eyes
Waiting to me talk more
"i'm sick, and i can't do anything for it, i'm sorry jihyo ah, i can't stay by your side longer, i can protect you i can't...."
I hug her back, i cant talk more...she cry badly
"what are you talking about, you will stay by my side forever, i'll never leave you and you will never leave me, nothing will happen, just stay beside me i'll make you heal again" she said in her cry
"mian jihyo ah, i've cancer in my brain, it can't heal with surgery, my chance to live with surgery just 4%. I dont want to do it, i will spend my 4 mounts with you, with all of my precious people"
I cry badly and she cry more badly
We just cry in huging more then 15 minutes
Then i seperated us
I hold her hand
Swipe my tear and swipe her tears too
"jihyo ah"
She not respon me, just keep cry in silent and look down
I understand it,i hug her back untill she calm
The she sit back and look at me
"lets go to hospital, i believe you can heal"
"i did jihyo ah, i come to 6 hospital, find best doctor in this country and ask USA ans australia doctor ,their answer same, just 4%."
"4% is chance, lets do it"
"no jihyo ah, noo.i decided. I dont want wasting the rest of my time, please jihyo ah"
"but.."
"please, just stay beside me and help me to relise my bucklet list"
She cry again and close her face harshly
"why must you jeongyeon aaaah whyy, i dont want you sick i dont want you leave mee jeongyeon aaah"
She lean her head on my cheest no word i can say to treat her hurt
We spend more then hour to cry and cry again
She get back her clear mind
Straigh her back bond swipe her tears
"lets do your bucklet list"
I give my diary for her and read my buclet list
"i stil have some but i did not write it"
"i'll help you make it real, lets do it, which one we do first?"
"1 -3 i'll do by my self, but i need your help come with me find present for my parents, switzerland lets go next week, 3 days first our holiday,
5th day lets hang out with the girls and next day sky dyving and swiming in the sea"
"ok, but promise me 1 thing"
"what?"
"dont feel anything, just happy!"
I smile hear that and
"ok, i want you promise the same"
"ok, pinkypromise"
We cross our baby finger and i hug her tightly
"gomawo ji, i love you sooooo much, lets happy together and forever"
"ok"she answer with tears"
We left the beach, i hold her hand as long as i can
We take taxi to back home, i lean my head on her shoulder
"jihyo ah"
"hmm?"
"do you know why what i find earlier"
"what"
"3 weeks ago, when i know my illness and try find the way to heal back, i find that when think about died, fear about died, is not mean whe have to deny to died but live on right way, fiil our time with kindness. Because deniy and run from die will never work for human, every human will die.
So lets live on the right track, be good people, do everything right.love and help people as much as we can, leaft something can make people live in peace in their future. Death is not bad thing ji,but live right to make our death be precious thing for us"
"hhh i proud of you jeong, you always have way to make me strong, make me in peace, i love you my sister"
She said it calmly
