Ashley Purdy Is My Saviour. (COMPLETED)

Chapter Seven: A Dream Come True.

Ashley's p.o.v.

I sigh. She won't let me forget it. We had sex, un-intiontal. I give her my answer, "Fine. I will start making calls tomorrow. Why are you pushing this?" I finally caved. I just couldn't take her nagging anymore. "We belong together Ash. Not father-daughter style but couple style. Haven't you noticed? It's like we have our own language he others don't know about." Our own language? What the hell is she talking about? "What are you talking about?"
"Come on Ash, we know exactly what we're talking about, when the rest of them don't have a fucking clue."

"Like what?"

"Like when you first met Amanda, the guys don't know who she is except you and me. We where talking about her in the studio just the other day."

"Oh yeah. I completely forgot about that. Speaking of which, we have to get the studio. Now."

"Okay... Damn."

We drove in silince to the studio. I packed my bass and a guitar for her. I don't even know if she knows how to play. Or if she can sing. I guess we're going to find out. If she wants to be on tour, she has to be able fill in if one of the guys gets sick. We finally got there and walked in, "It's about damn time you two showed up!" CC said and picked up Joey in a bear hug and she hugged him back. "Shut up CC." He just ignored me and flipped me off. "Okay Joey, if you want to be in this band...." Andy started

"I know. I know. I have to be able to sing or play guitar. Or both. I love to sing anyway."

"Mind showing off a little?"

"Sure!" She loved showing off her skills when it came to music.

She headed to the piano that was in the middle of the studio. She sat down and started to play The Grey By her favorite pop/ rock band, Icon For hire.

"I'm standing on the edge of returning or just running away.... I am letting myself look the other way.... And the hardest part in all of this is, I don't think I know my way back home. Is it worth the journey or do I let my heart settle here?"

Jinxx started playing his violin right on cue. It made the experience even better, and she continued,

"How cold have I become? I didn't want to lose you by what I'd done. Caught in The Grey... I don't wanna look you in the eyes you might call me away. I don't wanna give you the chance to make me stay and the hardest part in all of this is... I know my way back I don't want to go and let you see all that has become of me... I should've known. I should've known. I didn't have a chance. How cold have I become? I didn't want to lose you by what I'd done. Caught in The Grey... It burns for a moment but... But then it numbs you. Takes you and leaves you just caught in The Grey... In your deepest pain. In your weakest hour. In your darkest night. You are lovely..."

She let the song trial off. And she sang it with the same passion as the singer did. She sang the whole first verse. She let it trial off because she was crying at the memories of when her real dad taught her how to play the piano and The Grey was the first song he taught her. "How the hell do you play like that?!" Jinxx asked after he put down his violin. "My 'real' dad taught me when I was young. He was always a music nerd. But the Marines was his dream. He taught me so I could keep his dream alive."

"But... I killed him..."

"It wasn't your fault man, you where just defending Joey." CC said.

"What's name of the song and who's it by?" Jinxx asked all of a sudden.

"'The Grey' by Icon For Hire."

"Never heard of em'"

"Duh. They're a pop-rock band, of coarse you wouldn't know them."

Jinxx folded his arms acrossed his chest, fake pouting. "Well smart ass, got a cd we can listen to?"

"Yep!"

She got the cd from the huge cd rack and popped it in. We sat and listened to the whole thing! Jinxx even started tapping his foot at some point keeping time with the guitars. CC was playing air- drums trying to figure out the notes. When "Iodine" came on they thought it was the "heaviest" song on the record. Then "The Grey", the song she sang. Jinxx looked at her with a 'wow' face suprised how "heavy" it got and went back to ballad so quickly. When the cd was over I got up and popped it back out so it wouldn't get badly scratched. "So? What ya'll think?!" She is origonally from the mid-east (ohio basically) "Not bad. The girl sounds hot." I said. "Nice country accent!" CC always made fun of her for her "country" accent. "I ain't country! I'm from Ohio! I ain't got no accent!" They just burst out laughing. "Sure, sure. Andy's from Ohio and he don't talk like that!" CC said between laughs. "So?! Small town and big city! Big difference! Ya'll so mean to me!!" They continue to laugh harder. CC was in tears at this point.

"Guys come on, leave her alone." I had to stop it. She was starting to cry from embarssement. I put my arm around her and rubbed her shoulder. They looked at her once, and stopped. "Oh!" She said "I completely forgot! Ash, I got us tickets to see them live next week! Whatdya say?!" She asked all perky again. "I'd love too. Meet and greets?" when I saw the back of the tickets. "Yep! Since 'the girl sounds hot'." She said mocking me playfully. I hugged her tight. "Come on guys, let's go." I got up first. Joey leaned to Jinxx and whispered something and he nodded. I wondered what she said.... And the rest of the guys, except Jinxx left the studio.

Joey's perspective

I leaned to Jinxx and whispered, "Can I talk to you when they leave?" he nodded in agreement. The rest of them got up and left. We where still sitting on the floor. "What do you want to talk about?" He asked. I knew I could trust Jinxx with anything. I always go to him when I can't go to Ash. "It's about me and Ash. I don't know what to do anymore." I started. He just continued to listen, he's such a awsome listener,"What do you mean? Having problems?"

"Yeah.... I've been trying to get to...." I couldn't finish. How could I tell Jinxx I want Ash to un-adopt me so we can date? "To...?" he prometed. "It's really hard to explain... It's about the whole adoption thing." He looked at me sideways and questioning at the same time. "What are you getting at exactly? What's going on between you and Ash?" Fuck. He's catching on. "Well, you see... The other day.... We where alone and.... I guess.... We did it that night..." I barely got it out. "What?! You slept with Ash?! Joey how could you do this to him?!" He was yelling at me when I was confessing a humgas secret to him. I felt tears coming to my eyes. "I didn't mean to! It just happend! I love him so much and I can't love him right if I'm his damn daughter!" He saw I was crying and leaned in to hug me. "What didn't you say that in the first place? I would've understood a thousand times better."

Jinxx's perspective

I can't believe what I just heard. Joey slept with my best friend. She has no heart to realise what she just did to him. A thousand thoughts where running through my head. What do I make of all this? Will she tell the others before Ash does? How does he feel about this? I let go of her. "When did it happen?" I asked her. "Just.... A few days ago.... He was so cool with it. He even made it 'happen' if you know what I mean?" Oh my god. I can't listen to another word of this. "Why would you even think of doing that Joey? You're only a child! What if you get pregant? Did you ever concider the conquences of your actions?!" She just stared at the floor. "No! I thought you would help me! I can't even trust you anymore!! I love him and he loves me I want him so damn bad and I can't have him!" She didn't answer my origonal question.

"He's not ment for you Joey! When he's not around you, he's around some woman! He doesn't love like you love him! He loves you as a daughter not a lover!" I had to break it to her, and not gently either. She was crying harder and started hitting the floor with her fists. I shook my head at her foolish anger. "Self harm won't get you out of this." She stopped immeadetly and looked at me with pure anger. I haven't seen this side of her before. Can I say I'm scared of this side? I'm fucked too. "You want self harm? I'll give you self harm bastard!" That shocked me so bad, I nearly jumped out of my skinny jeans. She ran to a corner and pulled out a pocket knife. Oh my fucking god. What did I just do? I got up and ran to her just as she slit her wrist.