Dance for Me

31

REMI'S POINT OF VIEW:

I can feel myself being carried up the stairs, my eyes slowly dragging themselves open. Not going to lie, I feel somewhat embarrassed, this isn't the first time he's had to carry me up all these stairs. I can't find the energy to stop him though. Whatever he does to me, it immobilizes me. I can't help it. He brings me so much peace.

Andy opens his door and sets his keys in the bowl next to the door, locking it back up as he carries me to his bed. God his soft, warm, fluffy bed. So warm, so cozy, I can already feel myself start to drift off again. I barely register him taking off my coat and shirt, my body is too heavy to comprehend.

I whimper when he takes off my jeans and pushes myself up, the deep ache running up my back. It stings to all hell. He drags my socks down from my thighs and I can hear a small gasp. I probably have some bruising and scratches from tonight. It ended up going for an hour over and yeah...it got a little rough for a moment.

"Want a shower, babe? You literally smell like a fucking candy cane."

Damn. I wish I could find the humor in it. Maybe I will tomorrow, it's just that tonight was so humiliating. I'm honestly embarrassed. I nod, managing to lift myself up so I can wrap my arms around his neck. Andy carries me to the bathroom and sets me down on the icy cold marble counter and I gasp, hugging myself from the chills. He turns the shower on and once it heats up he lifts me into it, undressing himself quickly and joins.

The world is so fucking heavy, I can't even move from where my head lands on his shoulder, pretty sure I'm falling asleep while standing up. Andy wraps an arm around me and starts scrubbing my body, ugh fuck. I close my eyes and drift off, feeling the gentle caresses he glides along my wet skin. I missed this so much. It's as if I'm floating, so relaxed and in peace, I feel safe. Secure. Warm. He starts to kiss my neck and whisper something into my ear but I cannot comprehend it, I'm in such a weird place of sleep yet awake.

His hands slip to my ass and washes me gently and I groan, it still fucking burns down there. The worst part was the two guys at once and I'm pretty sure they tore me in half. I can feel Andy tense up when he realizes how open I am but he doesn't stop, continuing to wash me until I'm scrubbed to his liking.

"I'm sorry," I whisper, eyes still closed.

"For what babe?" He asks, rinsing the loofa of the soapy suds.

"I know you know," I yawn. "What I've been doing."

There are more kisses along my neck and I can't help but whimper.

"We will discuss it tomorrow. For now I need you to relax, babe. I just got you back. I need your cuddles."

I chuckle, "as long as you hold me all night tonight, I'll do whatever you want."

Andy finishes rinsing my body off and turns off the water, drying me off with a towel. "I may handcuff you to the bed. I'm scared you will leave me again."

I snort, loving how he is with me. Hell I'd probably let him tie me up whatever way he desires.

"I'm not leaving."

He picks me up and carries my naked body to the bed, laying me down ever so gently. For such a big and scary gang guy he sure has a soft spot at least for me. Andy joins me naked as well, holding me close against his body as if he's scared I'll actually run away again. I won't, I'm too weak.

"How'd you find me?" I yawn, snuggling my head into his chest.

"I've been looking for a while babe, just never thought to go on that side of town at night. Yeah I don't blame him one bit. It can be a little intense, especially with the fights all around us.

I touch the scar on his shoulder and he winces a bit. I already feel fucking terrible.

"You promise you are okay though? Seriously?"

He nods, kissing the top of my head. "I am so much better now that I know you are safe."

"'m always safe with you, I yawn loudly. I need to succumb to the darkness now. I'm exhausted beyond relief.

As my eyes can't help themselves but close, I feel myself utter those three words that I've been thinking for weeks but too scared to say. Why I have confidence now I'll never know.

"I love you."

As I feel myself slip to dream land, I hear a quiet, "I love you more."