CA$H ONESHOTS

I want to be beautiful (13)

Summary: Nash hates being fat. He's not comfortable in his skin. He starves himself. He just wants to be beautiful.
Sad :(((((((

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Nash's POV

Cameron and I were cuddling together on the sofa in his living room. We decided to spend a few hours together after school. We mostly get all lovey dovey at his house because my mom is homophobic but Cam's parents accept our relationship. They literally adore me!!!!

"Baby?" Cam called out.

"Hmm?" I answered.

"Di...Did you eat today?"

No.

"Yes." I tell him.

I can tell he doesn't believe me because he scoffs and sits up with me in his lap.

He kisses me lightly and slips his fingers under my shirt. He pulled away from the kiss and looks at my bone prominate chest.

He sighs and looks at me with disbelief.

"Do I have to force feed you like your a damn one year old?!"

I shake my head softly and I stand from Cam's lap.

"I'm too fat!! I want to skinny and pretty!! That's all I want!!" I whimper out.

"YOU??!! FAT? NASH I CAN SEE YOUR RIBS FROM HERE!!!"

"I'm an elephant!!! You haven't told me you loved me today and it's because I'm getting fat!! You noticed that I gained seven pounds. I'm huge!!"

"Maybe I haven't told you today because I noticed that you lost seven pounds!!! It's like you get skinner every time I see you!!!! That's not good for you Nash. You could end up killing yourself and I need you. I don't want you to leave me here. If you wanna go, take me with you."

I shook my head immediately.

I just want to be beautiful. Tears spilled down my cheeks.

"N-Nash baby don't cry. I just want the best for you."

I nodded.

My wrist are itchy. I try to absentmindly attend to the itch but get caught.

Cam scoops me in his arms. He grabbed my wrist and rubbed the pad of his thumb over my red and deep scars.

"Don't scratch like that, rub softly okay."

I nodded and rested my head on his shoulder.

I wrapped my arms around his waist and we sat there silently. Cam whispered sweet things that always made my heart flutter.

"Let's get something to eat." I said strongly.

Cameron chocked on his own spit and widened his eyes.

"W-WHAT?!!"

"You heard me. Don't make me repeat it. Those words literally made me want to stab myself in the neck."

"Okay! So what was your favorite food before you started this."

"Uh I-I really l-liked those bacon cheeseburgers f-from ummm uh Applebee's." I say shyly.

"Okay, we'll go there and get some burgers." Cam smiled at me and slowly stood up. He intertwined our fingers and lead me to his car. He opened the door for me and kissed me before I got in. He got in on his side and we started down the road to Applebee's.

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Our food finally reached our table but I made no move to take my first bite.

Cam sat on the other side of the booth patiently and watched me cringe and wince at the sizzling burger.