𝑻𝒚𝒍𝒆𝒓 𝒙 𝑹𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒆𝒓 (𝐓𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐑𝐞𝐝)

♫︎ 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐠𝐥𝐮𝐞 ♫︎

𝑵𝒐𝒘 𝑷𝒍𝒂𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 "𝑴𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕" 𝑩𝒚 "𝑽𝒊𝒆𝒓𝒓𝒆 𝑪𝒍𝒐𝒖𝒅"

--------------𒊹︎︎︎------------------

𝑌𝑜𝑢'𝑟𝑒 𝑟𝑢𝑛𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑙𝑎𝑡𝑒

𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡𝑠 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢.

𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑠𝑜 𝑤𝑒𝑙𝑙...

𝐷𝑖𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑑𝑜𝑔 𝑒𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 ℎ𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑘 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛?

---------------------------

Y/n's POV

I stood there silent. I looked at myself in the mirror. ' Did you gain weight? '

I turned to the side to look at my stomach.

' You look terrible! You should skip breakfast. '

Maybe it was right... I should try to eat as little as I could today! Maybe then the voice will go away... But then again...

It hasn't gone away since seventh grade! I'm entering tenth grade now.. Hopefully Tyler won't be much of a pain as he was last year..

Hopefully...

I put on an oversized hoodie and a pair of leggings.

This is going to do. It will have to. I hate my current style. But I know that even if I change, it will never go away.

It will always follow my footsteps. I will always have these feelings.

Im never going to get better. Even with medication.

I hate myself. It has made me grow to hate myself. Since Seventh grade.

I've always been Jealous of my friends. Mei, Priya, Abby, and Miriam. Sure, they made me a lot more happy with myself, but I've always been jealous of them.

They can always just... Handle there emotions without effort.

They have something that I will never have.. Confidence.

I will never feel the things they do because it keeps degrading me. It keeps telling me that I will never be good enough.

I know it's right, but at the same time I don't!

I'm trapped in this stupid circle of my own emotions! I am never going to be good enough. At all.

Nobody in my friend group knows at all. The only person I've opened up to, is the school counselor. But even they don't know half of the things I go through.

All they ever tell me to do is 'Take a few deep breaths' like that will even help!

I don't even know what I'm doing with my life! It's all a blur. All I know, is that I'm dizzy, cold, alone, and scared.

Not like parents even help! I don't know my dad and my mom is always out of the house.

I just always and will always have to live on with the constant bullying of my peers.

....

Always.

------------------

A/n: There is the first re-written chapter for this story! I made Y/n insecure.

I hope you enjoyed it! I found a new style of writing I enjoy and LOOK. No swear words! Im still very hesitant but I have some ideas for Y/n's personality.

And... I made it Non-Awkward! Y/n and Tyler are both fifteen. So it will not be as awkward for them to kiss.

Word Count: 475