Chapter 15: brother fogiven

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Zane

FYI right after walking out of the bookstore

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I pace to my car, making sure not to look back to see if any of them are coming after me, not that I think they will come

I messed up.

Badly

I take my keys out of my pocket, unlock my car, hop in, and rest my head on my steering wheel while closing my eyes

I seriously fucked up.

I think back to what I just did, me being more than rude to Adelina, calling her names, backing her up into a bookshelf, caging her in, not letting her leave, making her almost cry-

Fuck

I almost made her cry

which equals to making her cry, and that is something I never ever wanted to do. ever since the day I met her, I've wanted to be her light, her reason to be happy, and I know that seems selfish, and it is, but she made me feel something. She made me feel happy, made me feel like I can love,

but she is the same person I just hurt beyond repair. she is the person I yelled at, got into her face and said all the things I said. I made Adelina feel scared of me.

She made me feel something, something I haven't felt like in years

something that feels like-

"Open your fucking door Zane" William at the passenger side of my car shouts at the glass that's dividing me and him while Ash just stands there, his arms crossed over his body, making him look bigger.

well fuck

I should've left when I had the chance

I don't look at them while I role down my window.

I can already feel them staring at me, waiting for me to say something about what just happened in the bookstore. I don't. I don't say anything. I just stare ahead of me which isn't anything interesting. It's just a parking meter, but it's better than staring at William and Ash

tap, tap, tap

William is taping on my door like a fucking maniac because he wants ME to start talking. Well, I'm not

"Wow, omg wow! That parking meter is so fucking interesting isn't it Ashy bear" William says making a mockery of this situation.

"you two should leave" I say still not looking at the both of them

Truth is, if I look at them and see there disappointed faces- correction crazy fucking mad faces, I don't know if something I've hidden for so long will stay locked in my mouth. There mad right now, and I know for a fact their not going to drop what happened back there, meaning I would have to lie, or tell them the truth

And I'm afraid I'm going to spill

There my best fucking friends, my ride or dies, and I know I can trust them with anything that happens in my life, but this, what happened in the library is far deeper than anything I've ever did, especially to a women, and far fucking deeper than a simple "bro I've got you" talk

"you too should leave" man shut the fuck up, what the actual fuck just happen back there" Willam says shaking his head in disbelief of my words and or the show I put on for them. Ash just looks pissed, and I can't blame him, I said some fucked up shit to him that really went deeper than I thought would go

I really fucking messed up

"Oh now what your going to give US, your two fucking BEST FRIENDS the silent treatment, oh wait didn't YOU just give ADELINA shit for her staying QUIET, nah you better start talking boy" Willam says in one whole breath, putting his hand through the opening of the window to unlock the doors so him and Ash can get in my car

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