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Chatper 8: I Cant

                                     ~Adelina~

I push against Zane's chest, and let me tell you. His chest is smooth, firm, its everything that I'm attracted to.

Zane moves out of the way, and keeps eye contact the whole time.

His eye contacts gives me intense butterflies, it's actually insane.

"what type of coffee would you like?" I question Zane. He just stares at me.

Well this just became awkward.

"hellooo, earth to Zane, what kind of coffee would you like?" I say in a teasing tone

"oh...ummm....whatever your going to have, I'll have that." he says still staring at me.

"alright." I say while going to the coffee machine and making a salted caramel iced macchiato. this is the best drink here, well in my opinion. It has the best sweet and salty combo that was ever created. basically, its heaven on earth.

"Alright this is a salted caramel iced macchiato, It's the best drink here, In my opinion." I say to Zane while walking to a table and having him follow me. We both sit down and drink our drinks

"It's good right." I say with a proud face

"this is the worst thing I have ever tasted. What the hell is this" he says in a pissed of tone, with a slight smirk on his face

"Oh, i can make another one just give me-"

He's laughing. Like full blown laughing his ass off. His doubling over while his dimples make an appearance.

I love it when he laughs.

"I'm joking Adelina, this is really good." He says with a huge smile on his face

"You sure, it's fine I can make an another if you don't like it-" I say but hey cut off again

"Love I was being sarcastic, this is amazing, thank you for making it for me." Zane says with a smirk and smile on his face.

Well, I guess he likes it. That's good.

"Alright" I say looking at him.

"You know, you should wash that blood off your hands, it's not very hygienic to have someone else's blood on your hands." I say while taking sips of my drink. Gosh it really is so good.

"I'll have all the blood on me if it means your safe love. I don't care how unhygienic it is."  He says to me looking like he was being serious.

He really is being serious. This man is making me  fall madly in love with him and it's not good. It's not good for either of us.

But he's just so, so perfect. Everything he does is so perfect. The way he talks to me, looks at me, he makes me fall in love with him

But I can't

I can't fall in love with him

I've learned from last time and I'm not making that mistake again

for my sake, and for sure for his

"Go wash your hands Anderson, and I'll clean the blood on the floor, my boss will kill me if she sees this" I say while getting up and going to get a rag to clean it up

"She has to go through me first in order to kill you love."  is all he says before I hear the water turn on and hear him washing away the blood

He really just said those words, and he really means them.

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It's been half an hour and me and Zane have been talking the whole time.

All we've talked about is our friend group.

Like can't we talk about other things. Like us, but not us us, like I wanna know what Zane is really like. Like what his interests are and what he likes to do

But no, we're talking about Ash and William, and how all they do is be funny all the damn time.

"Yea one day, William pulled a prank on his mom when I was there. He got a windex bottle and you know how it says "spray on flat surfaces" he sprayed it on his moms ass" Zane says with his face, facing the window. He has a expression on his face that I can't pinpoint why. It's like he wants to say something, but is holding back.

"What did you do when you were younger, all I'm hearing in Ash and William" I say looking at him, trying to see what expression he's going to make.

He's blank. Like there's nothing there. No smile, no hurt, just blank

Then he turns to me.

"You wanna know my life Adelina" he says with an amused face

"I mean, I don't really know anything about you do I" I say

"That's a good thing" he says looking away from me with his jaw locked

"Tell me a story of when you were younger, like building a fort, or you know, something, something that I don't know" I say pleading but keeping my voice steady

I wanna know his life. I mean he's already making me fall head over heels for him and I don't even know him.

He doesn't say anything. He's just looking out the window.

Fine. I'll bring my own question if he isn't going to answer

"Did those hurt?" I question

"What" he says with his jaw locked, his face formed into one of hate

Wow he can change moods quick

"Your tattoos, did they hurt?" I say again weary of my words.

"No" is all he says

"Oh...okay" I say looking at him then the window

Suddenly he stands up, grabs my arm, pulls me out of my chair and pins me to the wall.

I yelp in pain.

"Who the fuck hurt you Adelina" he say, his voice demanding, his jaw locked, his voice full of anger

"Let go of me Zane" I say trying not to let the tears fall down my face

He's not letting me go. He loosened his grip, but isn't letting me go

"Let me go Zane." I say more serious than the last.

"Not before you tell me who hurt you. Why did you scream so loud when coffee was splashed on you, and I know coffee doesn't hurt that bad being splashed on. Why did you scream in pain when I pinned you to the wall, and oh, I almost forgot, why did you jump when I put my arm around you at lunch." He says, his voice calm but demanding.

"Who hurt you?"he says, his voice calm as music

I shut my eyelids fully, and tried to steady my breathing. I wish I could tell. All I want is to tell him. All I wish is to tell him everything that's happened over the years...but I can't

"I can't" I whispered

He let go of my wrists

And I left, without looking back

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Sorry again that I didn't post yesterday. I still won't be posting as much since I have to study for my finals on Monday, but I'll try to post as much as I can.

That's all I have

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