This may be triggering. So just a heads up. If you are sensitive to these kinds of things.
Your pov
I looked at worthless self in the mirror with tears running down my face it's to were the point were I can't do this anymore I'm giving up ! I'm giving up on life . I had the blade in front of me but you know I can't just go with out saying goodbye I was home alone at my house . I walked into my room and picked up my laptop i started recording I tried to speak but I couldn't get the words out . Tears ran down my face .
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Gilinsky pov
" umm "she said laughing a bit
"well this is the last time you'll see me or the oldest you'll see me " she says we were crying
" I'm so sorry I'm just so sick of everything nothing ever goes right for me I can't do anything right I don't see a reason for being here I don't see a difference Whether I'm here or not I don't even know why I'm still here "
"I don't want to be here Jack " she starts Jack couldn't stop bawling
"you're amazing you'll get far in life you're special to me I know we talked about having kids but what's the point if they turn out like a mess like me and you , I just want to thank you " she said smiling a bit this time
" you helped me this far your the love of my life and nobody could ever replace you I love you so much "
" I could fucking have done something ! I could have saved her ! I'm such a fucking screw up ! Jack screamed with Sammy trying to calm him down
