The sound of silence

lying

I am lying to their faces,
I am not stopping now.

I am crying in private,
always looking down

I am falling , I am hurting ,I am choking , but I'm fine.

I am not listening to their words,
Because the only words important are mine.

You hurt me years ago,,
So I try to grow,
From your mistakes.

I am listening to your problems,
I am trying to understand,
But when I make a joke,
And you do not laugh,
All I feel is bad.

Am I a burden to the good ones,
Am I born to die?

I am not any different from you,
I just don't want to try.