The sound of silence

that song

That one song ,that describes your pain so perfectly.

When it is so beautiful, that your heart hurts every single beat, every single chord.

When your head is pounding , but your heart's only beating to the rhythm of that one song.

Maybe it reminds you of some TV show, maybe of a book, or simply of that 2 seconds of nothingness,  you felt last night.

You are not crying anymore.

You're laughing, smiling,  it's so much worse.

Everybody's asking if you're OK, but when I tell them you are, they stop worrying,  because you would tell them , wouldn't you?

But that' s the thing about it,
once you realise you're not  , you're already buried deep in your dark thoughts.

It's like you put on sunglasses  ,
Everyone tells you how sunny and beautiful the world is ,
But you  can't  see it  anymore.
It's like the light is there , and everyone is able to see it , everyone but you .
To you,any small flash of light is pure invisibility. 

And you feel like there is never going to be any light in the future.

But they assume you're fine,
You're not crying in front of them ,
So why would you be crying, when you're alone.

You want to be alone,
But not lonely.....

It's when nothing is too much and everything is too little.