The sound of silence

Drowning alive

I am still breathing
But my heart is not beating like it used to when I was a child

I feel worthless and stupid
Every day that I am still alive

Although I thought that I was strong 
I am weak and hopeless
And I  finally I realised I was so wrong

I am not dying, but I am not living 
I am floating and suddenly sinking and for a second I do see a flash of light

But no , my thoughts, they're lying
There is no hero in sight

There was never

There is not now

And the future had the same live planned for me in this town

The ice is breaking,
My world is shaking
All those smiles I am faking

And they say stay strong ,

They tell me to cheer up ,

What they don't know is that years ago,

I have given up