"What happened?" I asked Felix as we got in my car. I'm genuinely concerned about why he wants to talk to me and I have a feeling he doesn't want to be my friend anymore (or whatever we are, I don't even know).
He stayed quiet.
"I'm sorry" I said to Felix without thinking.
"...Why?" Felix furrowed his eyebrows.
"I honestly don't know but I know I did something. I didn't mean to make this uncomfortable, i'm really sorry" I said to Felix.
"...Not at all, it's my fault, I've been kinda distant today..." He said slowly.
"Yeah... I missed you today, a lot" I smiled a little.
He smiled back "Me too"
"Then, is everything okay?" I asked him "Are we okay?"
"Yes" He smiled hugely. "It's just- I don't want you to leave" He spat out.
What?
"Leave? Leave what? Leave YOU? Never" I said almost yelling. "I could never"
"Has Jihoon called you yet?" He suddenly asked.
"Nope, I don't think he is" I unconsciously put on a sad face. I mean, I don't care if he doesn't come but he really is a great friend and I miss him.
Felix noticed my sad face and furrowed his eyebrows. "Let's go" He said fast.
"Where?" I said smiling.
"I want ice cream" Felix said.
We drove to a convenience store and bought ice cream. "Mmmmm, this is goooood!" I said as I tried my ice cream. We were eating in the car.
"Really? Can I try it?" Felix asked me smirking.
Ummm? My heart is pounding so fast.
"Yes" I moved my ice cream close to his face. He took it and bit my ice cream popsicle.
"Ohhh, it's good. I liked it" He smiled and gave me my ice cream back.
I took a bite out of my ice cream on the same place Felix took the bite. Indirect kissing...
***
"But why? I still don't get it" I asked Felix after he apologized for the third time for being cold and distant.
"Do I really have to tell you? It's pathetic" He replied cringing.
"Of course you have to. We have to tell each other everything, remember?" I said to him.
"Fine" He gave up.
"And be honest, don't lie" I told him.
He looked at my eyes serious "I'm scared"
"Scared? Why?" I asked concerned.
Is he actually scared because he thinks I'll forget about him?
"Scared that he will call you" He looked down.
"Jihoon? Fuck Jihoon" I replied. I so badly wanted to tell him I love him but I can't, I'm not ready.
"What?" He asked chuckling.
"You heard me, I don't care" I lied. I do care but it's not as important anymore.
"What? Don't you want him to come?" He asked confused.
'I love you' I can't say that, I really can't...
"I do, but it's... difficult" I said slowly.
"What is difficult?" He asked again.
"...Everything is..." I looked down.
I started driving to the members apartment without saying a word. I really am not ready, I wish I was but i'm not...
***
I parked in front of his apartment complex and turned towards Felix.
"Why are you scared he will call me?" I asked with a serious tone.
"You will forget about me" He looked up to me and his voice broke. No.
"Forget about you? Never, that could never happen. Okay? NEVER" I almost screamed. "You're so special to me, you have no idea. You're like my favorite person, I could never ever forget you" I smiled at him and looked straight into his eyes.
"You will, we will never see each other again" Tears started forming in his eyes. No.
"No!" I said firmly. "Never in my life" I grabbed both of his hands and wrapped them with mine. "We come together, okay? I will never leave you, not until I die"
He put on a little smile with tears still threatening to come out "No... I will be a nuisance..."
"Shut up! Look at me" I grabbed his face and moved it upwards. We made eye contact "Never, never never never! I love you more than I love myself and Jihoon could not be more of a nuisance himself"
If that doesn't give everything away, I don't know what will...
He chuckled a little and I moved my hands to my lap. He grabbed a tissue from his pocket and cleaned his eyes, the tears never came out.
"Do you really think he is not coming?" He asked.
"Nah" I replied. I honestly think he is but I can't tell him the truth, if I do, he will probably start crying.
"Sooo, ummm, I mean, in all this time we've been friends," he stuttered "do you still have feelings fo-" midway sentence, a phone started ringing.
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☆ soulmate ☆ Lee Felix Yongbok
Fanfiction"Woah, you have so many freckles" I said rising my hand to touch his left cheekbone. "They are beautiful". "Say it again". "They...are...beautiful...?" I replied confused while looking at his eyes and still touching his face. A red blush covered his...
