☆ soulmate ☆ Lee Felix Yongbok

Chapter 31

I'm-

I expected so many things but not this. He is so happy I found a soulmate... he is a great friend but that is not what I see.

He never liked me, he never did. I was the only one who expected us to be together, he didn't. I always saw him as my future but he saw me as his last choice, and just that. He saw me as a friend and a partner but not someone he could be in love with.

Even though I know now that what I felt for him was not 'love', it makes me sad to think he never felt the same way for me.

I won't lie, i'm sad. It makes me sad. Am I not good enough for someone to be in love with me? Like he doesn't have a soulmate but still is happy for me? What about our deal? He never cared...

He wasn't affected by me having a soulmate. For him, it doesn't matter, he couldn't care less about what happens with us. I was his last choice and it's a fact.

Without noticing, I started crying, and not because of him, but because no one ever could love me.

Felix...

He doesn't love me either, right? I'm so stupid. All this time wondering 'who am I going to choose?' like if I was a main character or something. Turns out none of them love me...

I don't care that Jihoon doesn't love me, but Felix... Felix...

I love him so much it hurts.

***

"Hello?" I picked up the call, I didn't even check who was calling.

"Are you crying?" It was Bora.

"Yeah, why?" I said while sobbing.

"Why? Felix told me Jihoon called yesterday. If it has to do with him I swear I-"

"No, no. Where are you?" I asked her sighing.

"With the guys. Are you coming today? Felix doesn't wanna say it but he's worried" Bora said whispering.

"I'll come later. Jihoon wants to meet Felix" I replied.

She gasped "Why?"

"I don't know either but he looked so happy to meet him. And don't worry, he didn't do anything to me. This is my problem and it has nothing to do with anyone" I said.

"Why do I feel like you're not lying?" Bora asked.

"Because i'm not. I'm not a victim this time" I chuckled and sobbed at the same time.

"Really? You're always the victim, you don't know how to stand up for yourself" She said.

"Whatever. Can you do me a favor?" I asked Bora.

"Anything"

"Please reassure Felix and tell him I'll never leave him" I still remember how sad he was yesterday, but then I remember how awkward he was with me after that night of texting.

He's sad because he could lose a friend, not because he could lose a girlfriend, right?

No one could ever love me like that...

"Fine" Bora answered me.

"Please, do everything on your hands to make him feel calmed. He can't be sad" I said.

"Okay, I will"

***

"I'm leaving" I said to my brother who was in the living room.

"What was that all about? Why was he here earlier?" Sunhwan asked me.

"Who? Jihoon?" I said.

"Yeah, him" Sunhwan answered.

"He moved here, and we're friends sooo..." I said slowly.

"He's trash compared to Felix" My brother replied.

"What?" I said confused.

"Felix is perfect, don't you dare leave him for Jihoon" He said.

"Do you think I could do that?" I widened my eyes, I could never.

"No, just making sure. I hate Jihoon" He replied.

I chuckled and walked out of my house. Jihoon was already waiting for me.

"Hey" I said as I got into his car.

"Hi, let's go. What's the way? I'm so excited to meet him!" He said quickly.

I faked a smile "Straight for about 5 kilometers"

He started driving "Sooo, what's his name?"

"His name is Felix" I warmly smiled as I remembered him.

"Is he studying, working, how old is he?" He asked.

"Ummmm, working. We're actually going to his job place right now. And he's 20" I answered.

"Ohhh, what's his job?" He asked interested.

"He is an idol" I said smiling.

"What?" He screamed excited. "Like BTS?"

"Exactly" I laughed. "Cool, right?"

"So cool" He's so supportive, it makes me feel bad. But my sadness is bigger. "Do you like him?" He asked smiling.

"Of course I do, we're soulmates" I said.

He sighed "I'll never experience something like that"

I feel so bad for him, I feel guilty...

I didn't know what to say so I just stayed silent.