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Blindsighted - Chapter 5

Spending the afternoon hidden away in Hobi's office reassured me of being near Taehyung. Still, it offered me the space to process my thoughts quietly. After a few hours of checking through my emails and text popped up from Seokjin to say he'd sent over his draft. I smiled at his message to say he'd sent the email with his new proposal. As my eyes scanned his work, my chest fluttered giddy like the dawn of a school trip. Not because Seokjin had my number, but because his ideas were brilliant, perfect and expressed the similar suggestions I'd had in mind. Jin had taken them even further and portrayed his character's emotions better than I ever could; his creative talent was impressive, which caused my heart rate to dance.

'Would it be okay to call quickly?' - I sent the message holding my breath, feeling a little nervous about interrupting his possibly busy schedule. I knew drowning myself in work and feeling that creative spark would pull me from my thoughts. I needed this inspiration to serve as a distraction from the soulmate I still wasn't sure had been just my imagination or truly existed.

Without even a reply, my phone began to ring, and I answered it feeling slight relief was over me. "Hello, Mr Kim?" I answered.

A distorted laugh played through the phone, "Please, Alice, you're going to have to stop calling me that. If not Jin, then at the very least call me Seokjin. Mr Kim is my dad, and he's old!" he pleaded.

The lighthearted nature of his tone put me at ease and made the conversation between us flow like old friends reuniting as we passed along ideas. Laughter naturally fell from my lips, especially when his infectious laughter urged me to participate. Seokjin's high pitched laugh sounded like the noise you made when you wiped side to side to remove the condensation off the bathroom mirror; the noise itself was hilarious enough to make my stomach ache and wipe tears from my eyes.

We got entirely sidetracked. Seokjin fell into a series of jokes that were so awful I wouldn't have normally laughed; in fact, I'd have ended the call. Instead, it seemed like everything he said calmed me enough to relax my body. I had a sense of humour, but it was an unusual one that would be difficult for many to break down the exterior. Conversing with Seokjin was similar to the steam that rose from a hot bath in the frosty late evenings. Warmth enveloped my entire being.

Everything seemed to vanish. In all that fear and confusion, Jin was the solution, not just a distraction. At last, it seemed like everything was right in the world.

It wasn't until a sudden knock at the door that I caught myself, 'everything was right in the world', I repeated my last words. Dropped into reality, Taehyung's face appeared; it was then the guilt began to rise in my chest as the colour flooded back into Hobi's office. The room that had once been black and white... had seemed perfect to me? I shuddered and wanted to exile the thought along with myself. Was I taking Taehyung for granted? Surely it wasn't right to be complete with my soul's missing piece in another room...

"Alice?" both Tsehyung and Jin muttered in perfect synchronisation; it was almost eerie. Chills trickled down my spine as if my eyes had witnessed the brightest shooting star dart across the darkest skies. Their voices pulled me from this self-punishment. I could feel something approaching, something igniting within me, but I wasn't entirely sure what would step out from the shadows. Would it scare me or be the final piece. The last colour of my rainbow is some called existence. It was too soon to tell, and the uncertainty and confusion left an unsettled feeling sinking to the pit of my stomach.

"Sorry, Seokjin. I'm afraid we'll have to pick up this discussion tomorrow. I'll see you in the morning where we can finalise the decision before presenting it to the director." I quickly apologised and hung up as Jin wished me a pleasant evening before saying goodbye.

As I rose to my feet, I let a blissful smile form on my lips, greeting Taehyung as normally as I possibly could with this unspoken shadow looming overhead.