Is this what fear is ?
Is this the cold hearted feeling you get when watching a horror movie or is it for your life ?
I can't tell . I can't tell . I cant tell . I CANT TELL .
Im so tired , please , let me sleep . I'm so exhausted I can barely walk , perhaps it's just my stomach, I'll just drink some water ... but it's still going to be empty, you know . I know , cmon , why don't we go socialize with him ? He won't yell this time - promise ? .............. he won't right ? Please , tell me he won't . I can't , but an empty promise shall do , right ?
What's a dream without a little nightmare? What ? I can surely sleep through a nightmare! Please don't sound so excited... why ? Oh I know - you're still scared . I have to be , what else is there ... what else is there ? Ha ... haha ... have you forgotten? Forgotten what ? You don't remember... how silly !
" You don't ———- your tears don't ———!" Just block it out . I can't ! Yes you can , I've seen you do it before. Blocking it out would be like being deaf ! .... Dead people can't hear . What?
" you can tell us anything, right ?"
Who was she again ? No one of interest . She tried to help us- shut up . Stop talking- he'll hear you ... who ? Now now , you've really lost your touch , haven't you ?
The other side sure is pretty , right ?
This isn't real . This isn't real .
Don't deny it , look up , the sky is so ——— right ?
I cant - I cant hear you - what was that ?
This is a nightmare. Oh ... it's ... better than outside . Yes , now rest . No . What ? I don't like it . You fucking ungrateful child , shut your mouth , this isn't abuse, this is tough love - now cover yourself up you ————
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Book for my feelings
AlteleI need to write all these feelings down And share it to someone because Everyone else just won't listen DISCLAIMER: The events described are not new , they are just memories being brought back - feel free to vent all you need - just let it out , it...
