His Best Friend (B.E)

thirty two

billie pov
the next day
i sat on the tour bus just staring straight ahead. i lost someone that i loved most all because i was being stupid and couldn't handle the pressure. my parents, finneas, and claudia all went to take leila to the airport.

i stayed back because you know... i'm sure she doesn't wanna see me. she did say she never wants to speak to me again. i deserve it though.

i don't know what to feel. ive never loved someone as much as i love leila. i'm hurt. i'm mad that she left me but mad at myself because it's my fault that she left.

I don't even have a good explanation to why i slept with naomi. i just did it, and i knew what i was doing. everyone has a right to be mad at me.

My phone pinged and i jumped up hoping it was leila. I've texted her 28 times but i'm pretty sure she's not gonna answer. It wasn't her though sadly.

I even blocked naomi because every time i see or think of her it reminds me of what i did to leila. if i could take it all back, trust me i would.

I switched on the tv and watched the office. Tears welled up in my eyes because everything i do reminds me of leila. We used to cuddle up and watch the office together. I miss her so much.

leila pov
"i'm gonna miss you so much" claudia squeezed me tight. my flight was about to take off in 10 minutes and this is the part where we separate.

"imma miss you too. it was nice having a friend on tour" i smiled "let's hang when you guys come back to LA" i suggested and she nodded.

finneas then came and hugged me and kissed the top of my forehead. "stay safe little one" he said making me laugh.

maggie and patrick then came and hugged me. "im sorry for what happened between you and billie" maggie frowned "i don't know what's gotten into her"

"everything happens for a reason right?" i shrugged. they did one last call for my flight and i smiled at all of them.

"thank you guys for being like a second family to me. i love you guys so much" i pulled them into a group hug. After a few seconds i let go and waved at them one last time before turning around and walking to where i have to board the plane.

as i was walking i pulled out my phone and texted her one last time before blocking her and putting my phone back in my pocket. One tear streamed down my cheek and i hurriedly wiped it before boarding the plane.

billie pov
my phone pinged again and i picked it up not expecting it to be who i hoped it would be. but to my surprise it was exactly who i hoped.

pretty girl
today at 11:32 am

i love you so much billie
i always will <3

i love you too leila
i'm so sorry
not delivered

My heart ached as i realized she blocked me. She was serious about never talking to me again but at least she told me that she loved me one last time. She didn't even give me the chance to say it back to her.

I want to scream, cry, and break shit but this is all my fault. I caused this. Me and my stupid non functioning brain. I let the stress of the tour get to my head making me lash out at everyone. Even the one i loved most.

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