Mission: Win Your Heart - Sequel to 'Life is a warzone'

Chapter 14

   It’s been a few weeks since everyone knows for my desease. A few terrible, torturous weeks. Everyone was so careful with the poor dying girl. I hated this I needed to go somewhere without people around me. I appreciated their concern about me but it was getting on my nerves by now. Nathan was constantly at mine so he could make me a company. Tom was concerned too but because of Janis he couldn’t come so often.

Nathan was sleeping and I decided to steal out for a walk. I needed it. I needed to think about things. My operation was going to be in a week. It’s useless to say how scared I was. Nobody knew it because I was acting like it’s nothing, they were even wondering how I can be so calm and careless but the truth was I was extremely scared. I walked down the street and saw a little café. I walked in and sat on one of the tables. It was still early, maybe around 8am but there were people in the café already. A waiter came to me and asked if I wanted something to drink and I ordered myself a cup of tea and smiled politely. I was good at this – smiling at people when I wanted just to cry and cry , and cry. I was good at pretending that everything was OK. The worst was some of the people around me believed my smile. They believed it was a real one. The waiter came and gave me my cuppa. I looked at it lost in my own thoughts when my phone buzzed. I took it in my hand and saw the ID. I sighed and pressed the button to answer. There was a silence. Neither me or him spoke for a few minutes.

“I have to see you.” Tom said finally. He sounded sad and desperate.

“What’s up?” I asked.

“What’s up?! Seriously? What is wrong with you? How can you be so calm?” he raised his voice. I didn’t answer just sat there listening to his breathing calming down a bit. “I am sorry.” He sighed loudly. “I can’t take it anymore, I want to see you.” He added.

“Come at the little café down my street. It has some red chairs outside.” I said.

“I’ll be there in 10.” He said and hung up. I waited for him and remembered that Nathan was still in my flat but at 8am he was sleeping…like always.

“Hey.” I heard and looked up to see Tom. He was smiling weakly at me. I gestured for him to sit down. The waiter came again and Tom ordered a cup of coffee. He was nervous for some reason.

“What’s up with you?” I asked him.

“Nothing I am just worried about you. I haven’t stayed with you recently. Well, since you told us about your condition. I am worried,Julia. I am always thinking about you. I can’t sleep at night because I think about this stupid cancer! What if you don’t make it? What if the operation is not successful? These thoughts, these thoughts are going to be the dead of me- they are killing me! I can’t live without you. Please, please get through this.” He said and my eyes watered. I grabbed his hand in mine and squeezed it. He looked at me and reached with his other hand to stroke my cheek.

“I can only hope.” I said. His coffee came after a few minutes and he stirred it.

“Janis is always around me. I can’t stand her!” he said and I laughed.

“You chose to be with her. You can blame nobody for your choices.” I said and took a sip of my tea.

“I know.” He said quietly. We chatted and Tom’s phone buzzed so he had to go. He left me in the café and a minute later my phone buzzed. I held it against my ear.

“I forgot to tell you something.” Tom said on the phone.

“And what it is?” I asked curiously.

“I love you.” He said. I hung up and put the phone on the table. I smiled at myself but this time… this time the smile was real.