Living With Internet

Living with Internet; part 13

wow you guys probably hate me for not writing.
I've had this idea in my head for so long, that I've written so many pieces over and over in my head, without anticipating the actual writing.
I know my exact ending, and yet I have no middle....
UNTIL NOW
I plan on basically writing this as a huge chapter to get you guys caught up on the crazy thoughts and ideas I've had, hopefully you will enjoy!
ALSO thank you guys for adding this to your libraries and voting and reading it literally means so much to me! The fact that over 600 people have read this boggles my mind.
BUT ENOUGH TALK here we gooooo:

Phil's POV:
I sit heavily onto my bed, grabbing my laptop, and opening Twitter. "Starting a live chat in 5 minutes, come join! 🐯" I tweet, and shift on my bed to sit comfortably. This may be hard.

Today is the day I've decided to take a big step, not only for me, but for Dan as well.

We've decided to come out.

Our phandom took in the news of Lily staying with us so well, that I couldn't help but think how they would react to me and Dan confirming our relationship.

I chuckle to myself suddenly, knowing exactly how many people I'm about to make go unconscious from the news.

Just as I'm setting up the live chat, Lily walks in, frowning. "Phil, I need help with my knee brace again, it's stuck and I can't bend it." I reach down to help her, as she looses her balance and crashes into my bed frame. I jump up, panicking that she's hurt herself, but she only stands up and laughs, her brace fixed.

"Thanks for the help Phil." she laughs, and sits down next to me. And suddenly, for the first time I realize she looks... well.... normal. For the past few weeks while she's been staying with us, her appearance has been faint, her skin bruised and her eyes dark and sunken. But today, she looks healthy, her skin returning to its tan color, her eyes shine brighter than usual, and the resemblance of Dan grows further.

"Did I ever tell you how much you look like Dan?" I ask and she laughs. "You tell me everyday Phil, but I just don't see it. Maybe it's because you spend so much time staring at him like a love sick teenage girl." she winks, before sliding off the bed and leaving room. "Deuces." She calls as she closes my door.

I type in my password and log onto my YouNow, realizing my hand is shaking a little bit. Why am I so nervous? I've told all my family and friends long before, this shouldn't be any different. But it is, there's millions of people who are going to see and hear this, and judge me for it.

"I can't do it. Not now." I whisper, pushing my laptop away, when Lily appears in the doorway again.

"Phillip Lester don't you dare put that laptop down." My head snaps up to see her standing in front of me, her face serious. "You are brave and you know that, it's time to stop hiding yourself and show your fans the real you, no matter how scary it is. They love you so dearly, why would that change now?" Before I can react she presses the activate button, and my face appears on my screen, staring at thousands of viewers. "Tell them what they should know Phil, you can do it." she smiles gently and leaves the room, leaves me alone to my fans.

I swallow hard and fake a smile, as comments flood on the bottom of my screen. "Okay guys, I have something really important to tell you." I say slowly, my throat clenching. I'm about to open my mouth when Dan runs into my room. "Phil what are you doing?" he approaches my bed fast, and I freeze, confused. "I-I'm telling them the se-" Dan cuts my words off suddenly with him sitting abruptly onto my bed. "Without me? Silly Phil" Dan laughs, grabbing my laptop. He holds in front of the two of us, before grabbing my waist and pulling me closer to him, pressing his lips to mine gently, just for a second. "Our announcement is we're gay." Dan whispers into the computer, and presses the off button.

And suddenly all I can do is smile. It's over. We did it.

"Quite ceremonious announcement you guys." Lily winks, watching us front the doorway. "Shall we celebrate? Kind of a big deal you know." She says, walking away.

"Why do you think Dan? Should we invite Chris and PJ over to hang out tonight? "That sounds great." He smiles, kissing my cheek, making Lily snicker from the other room. "Dan and Phil, sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G" she chants down the hallway.

*THREE HOURS LATER*

*PJ'S POV*
I walk up to the doorway of Dan and Phil's apartment with my left hand intertwined with Chris's. For the past few weeks, everything has been perfect between us, something I would have never imagined to happen to me. He kisses my forehead quickly before knocking on the door. Lily answers, smiling. "Chris and PJ! I'm so glad you could come!" she beams, opening the door as we can enter. Me and Chris love seeing Lily, she's very much like Phil in my opinion, with the same quiet personality and gentle movements, but Chris thinks she's more like Dan.

Dan and Phil are standing at the top of the staircase, waiting for us as we enter. Phil takes our coats as Dan greets Chris and I, hugging both of us tightly. I hug Phil quickly as he returns, and so does Chris, making my stomach turn.

Why does that upset me? They're just friends, I know that. Just friends.

The rest of the night is nothing from the usual; playing board games and watching Netflix while eating pizza, laughing until our sides hurt. Everything is perfect, until we are just about to leave.

Chris and Phil hug again, but this time it lingers longer than I can take. "Chris. Let's go." I snap, a little too harshly. He turns, startled at the sudden tone in my voice, but he hugs Dan and thanks them for having us. When we reach the cold winter air outside, Chis reaches for my hand. I shove it into my pocket quickly, pretending I didn't see the hurt look on his face.

"PJ? What's wrong love?" Chris touches my lower back, stroking his thumb against the tough material of my jacket. I breathe deeply and bite my lip before answering. "You're sure there's nothing between you and Phil?" I ask quietly, cringing at my jealousy that I obviously can't hide.

"I promise there's absolutely nothing between us, only a platonic friendship." He smiles. "You're the only one for me" he whispers, kissing my head.

"I love you Chris. I really do."
"I love you too Peej."

*Phil's POV*

I sit down heavily next to Dan on the couch, who's already slouched into his sofa crease. I check my email for the confirmation of our tickets to Florida tomorrow for Playlist Live. "Excited for Playlist?" I ask Dan, who grunts to sit up. "Totally, but I still need to pack, help me?" I stand up quickly, following Dan to his room.

For the next hour we stuff what seems like Dans entire wardrobe into a small suitcase and pick it with the rest of our things for tomorrow. "Bed?" Dan pats the spot next to him. I lay down, into his arms, which hold me tightly against his chest; the only place I feel safe.

"I love you Dan."
"I love you Phil."

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Sorry that what so long whoops.
Next chapter will take place at Playlist, which is going to be a fun one to write! Hopefully I can start right after I upload this one.
Ily all <3
~ceiling_phan xx