First Class Camouflage

In the begining....

In the beginning it was the two of us against the world. Nathan and Emily all ways together never apart. Though he would remind me everyday that he was two minutes older than me we were best friends. It was our normal, constantly being together . Our mom was always working to support us and our "dad" hasn't been seen since my mom told him about us. So like I said it was us against the world. Some would say it was strange for a brother and sister to be so close but we had all the same friend, the same likes, dislikes and for most part the same opinions. The only thing that we couldn't agree on was the fact that he was joining the military the week after graduation. He was excited and proud to be doing something with his life where as I hated the idea and stood in his room the night before he left and unpacked his bag for the fifth time.

"Emily! You need to stop that is the fourth time I have re packed that shirt", I was stood up there looking guilty as hell when he walked back in his room. "Nathan I just want to make sure this is what you want to do! Eight months is a long time" he shook his head at me,"I am standing here watching you pack and trying to remember the last time we have been apart for more than a week and even than it was hell. For both of us? Don't you remember the time when you had to stay a grams for a week because you had chicken pox and me and mom hadn't had it yet"
"Yes Em I remember"
"Do you remember that we both would be on the phone for hours not even saying anything because we had no idea what to do with out each other! Because I do!" I couldn't help it anymore all the emotions of him leaving were surfacing. He crossed the room and wrapped me in a hug. I don't cry! I never cry!
"Emmy don't cry please don't cry"
"I am not crying!" I sobbed,tears running down my cheeks there was no going back now, I hated crying! He started laughing! My brother who was leaving on tour in less than 24 hours was laughing at me!
"Emily" he held me tighter with a chuckle " I know one thing for sure that you are going to be just as stubborn when I get home." I pushed away from him and started packing his bag "if you get home" I said angrily "yes, if I come home you are going to be just as stubborn if not more" he smiled. I threw down the shirt and turned around "and for your information I am not that stubborn!" This protest only made him laugh harder. One of my favorite things about my brother was his contagious laugh. I couldn't help it I started giggling trying as hard as I could not to it turned in to a full blown belly laugh. Once we had finally calmed down we noticed mom by the door with the look we both knew so well.
"I will never understand you two!" She laughed and started walking away this caused us to laugh harder until we both ended up on his bed clutching our stomachs gasping for air. After the laughter subsided it was time to get serious.
"Emily" he finally said " we need to talk"
"Nope we're not having this conversation" I yelled trying to get away
"Sit back down" he said looking sadder by the second "Emmy we have been inseparable since birth and now I am leaving. I know that I am going to come back but there is still a chance I won't."
"Nathan stop!" I felt the tears coming again
"Em, your my baby sister I know not technically but you are, you can't shut down if something happens okay. you can't repeat what happened with dad! You have to move on you have to be strong for mom okay!" He had tears in his eyes.
"Nothing is going to happen to you!" I screamed "and if your so damn scared than don't go!! No one is forcing you! You signed yourself up!! Your the one who is breaking us apart!" After that I had no more control over my body I collapsed to the floor and sobbed. I cried because I was going to miss him. I cried because I was scared that something is going to happen to him. And I cried because I was about to lose my best friend and even though I have said it for months I am not okay! On the floor of his bedroom is where we stayed talking, crying and eventually sleeping until the next morning when the alarm went off and it was time to drop him off.