I was locked up watching the guys get phone calls
Nobody love them for real so they all fall
It's cool when you expect it
That's what I always did
I'm different like that
From the city they hate to see you grow
Love to see you fall
Nobody wanna help you crawl
But wanna take from you when you ball
Look them in the eyes and say fuck them you'll be wrong
Own kind turning they back on the guys
Sounds like a damn headline
Can't blame them they the ones that's blind
Can't trust out here it's a sneaky world
Everyone wants your demise
So they can brutalize the fact you even tried
Brothers and sisters used to be the main guides
Till I jumped off the porch and got them drug highs
Feeling like a junkie and I didn't even mind
Looking around and it's nobody by my side
Sobered up and changed my life
They think I was more fun high
Too bad I'm a new man now right
One undeserving of even being in your life
Apparently it's only one sided when we hurt
Everybody believe what's before there eyes
And fail to realize
That life is the biggest Diamond in disguise
Covered in shit
People hate to take they time and pick at it
Trying to be the bigger guy helped my brother die
Putting others before himself took him from a place of wealth
And replaced his views of the world with filth
I miss my brother
Pray he knows I need him to survive
Don't die on me like them other guys
Took some time to myself to try and realize death wasn't the only reason why I felt dead inside
And I'm the one demonized said I threw the guys aside
In reality In my mind I'm battling suicide
Yearning for the drugs to feel new inside
Thinking to myself who needs anybody
Whenever everybody I love falling victim to homicide
Going years and years without seeing faces
Got me tracing vivid images of happier times I can barely remember
So much hurt inside it feels that's all I see inside
When I step outside I'm getting alerts somebody else done died
Did something for myself, had a crazy summer
But nobody gave a fuck, what a bummer
Hurt me down to my core
Thinking I just went up in score
To realize everyone left out the door
