Bittersweet Series 1: When The Sun Rises Above

Simula

Simula: Ghost

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I grew up without my father beside me.Kapag tinatanong ko naman si Mama, dini-divert naman nya ang topic, and I know na hindi pa sya ready para sa bagay na ’yon.

I don't really know the whole story but I remember back then when I was just a child, palagi sa akin kinu-kwento ni Lola na may iba na daw pamilya ang tatay ko.

Hindi naman ako galit, ewan ko pero ni katiting na galit ay wala akong makapa sa sarili ko. Marami ang nag sasabi na bakit ba daw hindi ako nagagalit?

Pero ang hindi naman nila alam, nakakaramdam din ako ng galit. Hindi ko lang talaga pinapahalata sa iba. Ayaw ko kasi ng gulo.

Kaya kahit sa sarili kong tatay, hindi ako galit sa kanya. Pero may mga tanong sa isip ko na walang kasagutan na tanging siya lamang ang makakasagot.

Isa sa tumanim sa isip ko, ‘ganoon na ba talaga ang pag-ibig?’ sobrang dali para sa iba na mang-iwan. Para sa iba. Like my father did to my mother.

They said that love is like a game—if you want to win, kailangan mong paghirapan ito. Meaning; you need to be patient until you win and get the price.

Kahit ilang beses kang matalo, just keep it going hanggang sa ikaw naman ang may hawak ng trophy.

But for me, love is far way different to game.

Because when we say 'game' it means that you're just playing- pwede ka ding magsawa kapag napagod ka na.

Love does not define like that. Hindi pwedeng kapag napagod ka na, iiwan mo na lang sa isang tabi. Behind this four letters, there are many responsibilities that you need to know. At kailangan mong panindigan 'yun, hindi pwedeng iiwan mo na lang at tataksan ang mga respinsibilidad na naka-abang.

First, you need to be patient. Dahil hindi naman minamadali ang pagmamahal. Sabi nga nila na kapag madali 'mong nakuha ang isang bagay, madali mo 'rin itong pag sasawaan. At when that time happen, may tao kang masasaktan.

And then the word 'heartbreak' came.

Most of the millenials this day already knows that. Kahit nga siguro 'yung mga elementary students alam na 'yan 'e.

I think all of us didn't want that to happen to ourselves. Sino ba naman ang gusto 'yung mangyari sa sarili nila diba? Sino ba naman ang gusto na masaktan sa pag ibig?

Kaya naman if you love someone, make sure that you're ready to the consequences that may happen if the worst time comes. Tsaka, don't give everything. Magtira ka para sa sarili mo. This is not based from my own experience, sinasabi ko lang 'to, dahil ito yung nakikita ko kay Mama.

I'm not saying na huwag ka na lang magmahal para hindi ka masaktan— what Im saying is, be ready. I know that not all the couples come to that scene na maghihiwalay dahil napagod na sa isa't isa. Or they just fell out of love. Ang galing ’no?

Karamihan nga daw na kapag matalino ka, bobo ka naman kapag nagmahal.

I don't know if it's true but base on what I see to my friends past— there's a possibility that it's true though.

For me, it depends on you if you want to be with each other, you will do everything para magtagal kayo.

That's my definition of love, and it's just for me and on my own perspective. We have different meanings of love. Others may base on what they experienced or see in a tv drama or some romance novels they know.

And I'm not against to them, if you think that that's the best meaning that you can say in the word 'love' I don't care. I'm just giving my own opinion.