The View// JeongChan FF

21. Astray

(Omfg. I haven't updated this for days. I'm so sorry!)

Jeongin had been so reclusive lately I was beginning to get worried. He was never like this. Especially not with me. After he and Binnie had bickered at the party, he hadn't spent time with any of us. I stood at his front door and took a deep breath. I rapped my knuckles against it and stuffed my hands into my pocket awkwardly.

"Oh! Hello Chan! Come on in!" His Mom welcomed me and I bowed before entering through the doorway into the narrow hall.

"Is Jeongin here?" I asked as I slipped my shoes off and placed my backpack down on the floor next to them neatly.

"He is sweetie, but he's locked up in his room. He hasn't been feeling well." The furrow in her brows told me everything I needed to know. I knew he wasn't feeling well. I knew exactly what was wrong.

He was having an episode.

"Is it OK if I try to talk to him Mrs Yang?" I asked hopefully. The thought of him being alone terrified me. I didn't want to know what kinds of things he could possibly be doing. I was more concerned about his obsessive nature. If he had disappeared into his mind, he could be doing some real damage to himself.

"Feel free. It might do him some good to have a friend around right now!" She smiled sadly and I excused myself from her presence. I took the stairs two at a time and knocked on his door loudly. I couldn't get to him soon enough.

"Piss off Mom. I'm busy." He snapped loudly. His voice sounded devoid of emotion and kind of scary.

So why did I find it so damn sexy?

"I-It's me Innie. Can I come in?" I heard some banging from the other side of the door, and the lock clicked. His hand wrapped firmly around my wrist and he wrenched me inside. He slammed the door and shoved me against it violently.

"What do you want?" His bloodshot eyes were wild with anger and his fists had such a tight grip around my shirt I couldn't move, or get him to release me. I was at his mercy in my current position.

I would change that.

"To check on you." I said quietly. I bit my lip and slowly lifted my arms. I rested my hands on his waist and waited for a reaction as I squeezed him slightly, hoping to make him calm down slightly.

I didn't get anything in return.

"Get out. I'm busy." He dropped my shirt and returned to his desk where he was working on his laptop. It was obvious he had been holed up in here for days, and I needed to get him to come out of his shell again.

"Innie. Please, talk to me. I-I miss you." I stated quietly.

"No you don't. You miss my mask. The person you thought you knew, that isn't me Christopher." I shuddered at the use of that name. I hated it. I let out a loud sigh and turned my attention to his photographs. I began running my fingers over the pictures on his wall, and admiring his artistry. He definitely had an eye for the finer details.

Most people with our kinds of brains did.

"What do you mean Innie?" I asked as I admired the candid picture of Felix and Hyunjin, in a sweet embrace. They looked so happy just to be together, and I wanted nothing more than to have that. Someone who I could just be myself around.

"You have no idea how my brain works Chan. I terrify everyone. This is me electing not to drag you into it." His keyboard tapped noisily as he worked and I rubbed my face hard. "Take the out whilst I give you the option."

"I know you. You will always give me the option. I won't allow you to take that away from me." I stated flatly, and factually. No one got the better of me. Especially not people like Innie.

"That's because you have no idea what I've already done."

"And that is everything I needed to know. I knew it was you Jeongin. I don't know how, or why I knew, but I did. Especially when you didn't react to my body that night." I stated thoughtfully. Something clattered against the desk and I felt his hand slide slowly around my neck, as his body pressed against my back.

"What are you talking about Christopher?" His tongue travelled down the side of my neck, and his teeth met my skin. His nails sunk into my soft flesh and I could barely breathe.

I should have been terrified. But I wasn't.

"You know damn well Jeongin. Don't play innocent now." A frustrated sigh left his mouth and his warm breath sent goosebumps racing across my skin.

"So why are you here? You should be petrified of me. Just like everyone else." He whispered flirtatiously into my ear.

"Because Jeongin. You have no idea what I'm capable of." He span me around and his lips were on mine before I could get another word out. He shoved me against the wall hard and pressed his hips against mine firmly as one of his hands slid up my shirt.

"Oh Channie. You have no idea what you invited into your life the second your sweet ass moved in next door." I pressed my lips to his neck and pulled his head back, using a fistful of his hair as leverage.

"You're a little tease Jeongin. The last guy who did this to me disappeared for awhile. You should watch yourself." I whispered flirtatiously. He wrapped his hand around my throat again and smirked at me.

"Don't test me Chan. This isn't a war you want to start." He moved his face towards mine, but I pressed my finger against his lips.

"You don't get me that easily Jeongin. No one does. First of all you're going to tell me what I want to know."

"And if I don't?" He asked with a mischievous glint dancing wildly in his dark, black eyes.

"I know your secrets too Jeongin. I have no fucking problem with sharing them with the world. Did you think I wouldn't notice you taking those photos?" I raised an eyebrow and a smirk danced across my lips. He looked wild again. Like he was ready to skin me alive and wear it as a jumpsuit.

"So what the fuck do you want from me?!" He asked in frustration as he glared down at me.

"I want you to be honest with me. Tell me it was you. Tell me you're the one who kidnapped me." I wrapped my hand around his chin and squished his face slightly. "Tell me you're obsessed with me. I want to hear it from your psychotic little mouth." I challenged as I held onto his face.

"Fuck you. You're probably recording this so you can show everyone. I don't trust anyone Chris. Least of all people who I idealise." He hissed angrily at me.

"You can fuck me whenever you want. But you have to ask permission first." I pecked his lips and removed his hand from around my throat. "Now tell me what happened."

"Sit down." I did as I was told and took a seat on the edge of his bed. It was clear Jeongin had never been challenged by anyone before.

I was the one person he currently wanted the most. I knew that. I would also be the only person he could never fully have.

I knew we would be the most dangerous destructive combination. I just needed to help him realise that.

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