Kaiser Wilhelm x Otto Bismarck (Smut)

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The night flew by and as Wilhelm woke up, the first thing he did was checking in Bismarck was still laying next to him. And he was.

Wilhelm smiled softly and cuddled back into the chancellor's arms, who moved slightly which shook Wilhelm who thought that Bismarck was still asleep.

"Good morning darling<3" Bismarck spoke in a very sleepy way while still holding the monarch close to his chest.
"How did you sleep honey?"

Wilhelm only cuddled closer to the chancellor and whimpered quietly.

"Still this tired hun?

The emperor didn't answer.

"We need to go and eat something, kitten. It's already about 11am"

The monarch turned to face Bismarck and looked at him with his best puppy eyes.
"Just fife more minutes please"

"You know exactly, I can't say no to you if you look at me like this"

"Mhm"

"Love, come on now" and with that, Bismarck got up and began putting on his clothes.

Wilhelm was just laying on the bed and looking at the muscular man Infront of him. He tried to sit up but immediately fell bet onto the bed grounding out in pain.

"You actually thought I'd be able to walk after yesterday?"

Bismarck giggled quietly as he helped his lover get out of the bed.
"Not really but I still wanted to see you try and I think it was worth it."

The emperor glanced at him annoyedly.

"Honey, you would have found it funny too if you were able to see how you fell back onto that mattress." The chancellor was still giggling as he spoke.

They had somehow managed to get ready for breakfast and go to dining room, as Wilhelm realized that Bismarck had been staring at him for at least 5 minutes.

"W- why are you staring at me? Is something on my face?" The emperor raised his teaspoon and looked at his warped reflection trying to see something weird that would be worth staring at.

"No don't worry everything's fine" the monarch instantly looked away and continued eating but Wilhelm just wouldn't let that bizarre situation be  unnoticed, no, he continued asking why Bismarck had been staring at him.

Bismarck was really starting to get annoyed but not at Wilhelm, he was annoyed because he didn't dare telling the emperor why he had been stealing glances at him for days, why he had been smiling like an idiot every time the maid told him that the emperor demanded to see him, why he had been trying to spend as much time as possible with the monarch and mostly why he had been staring at him almost for the hole entirety of breakfast.

But Wilhelm kept asking and the chancellor realized that he wasn't able to keep lying to the emperor.

"Alright I was staring at you because-… , I don't really know how to say this."

Wilhelm's smile was heartwarming but shattered Bismarck's heart at the same time because he knew that the emperor wouldn't like the ending of thar sentence.

"- so, I was staring at you because I, I don't know why. It just feel right, you know? It feels right whenever I look at you. I feel warm inside whenever I look at you, and mostly when you look back at me with your dumb smirk," Bismarck paused and took a deep breath.

"I really love working with you Wilhelm and I know that it isn't right for me to feel the way I do but I can't keep only spending time with you working or fucking, I want to be with you. I- I mean I want to stop with this 'friends with benefits' bullshit."

"Do you want to be my boyfriend Wilhelm?"

The room fell silent after that sentence.

It seemed like both of them even stopped breathing because that would be to loud and noticable in the sickening silence.

Bismarck looked up from his plate at was met with Wilhelms eyes locking on his as soon as they were able to.

No one spoke. They just looked at each other for a while.

Bismarck had teared up and was trying his best at suppressing the tears that where already making his vision blurry at the monarch finally began talking.

He spoke in an enraged but gentle way
"I know what you mean and I understand your thought process but you must understand that this is unacceptable."

Bismarck couldn't stop himself for crying any longer but he couldn't just interrupt the emperor so he stayed at the table, his head in his arms crying quietly at the monarch went on in a now extremely monotonous voice.

"We can not be together and you know that. The reason why we started this at the first point was because I wanted to be near you but couldn't be with you. I am a person of high rank and it would destroy my reputation if I was dating a man, but if you can't keep going like this, I think it'll be the smartest if we go back to only seeing each other at emperor and chancellor and nothing else. "

He took a short break before he continued.

"I really enjoyed our time together but that seems to be over so, would you please leave the table? I need to finish my breakfast and don't want to be bothered while doing so."

Bismarck got up in silence and left the room without looking into Wilhelm's eyes for another time or even turning around a last time to say something. He just left.

Wilhelm was now sitting at his table alone. He took a last look around, checking if anyone was near, but  as he realized that he was completely alone, he broke down crying.

Bismarck on the other hand went back to his own room and set down on his bed. He was an emotional wreck at that point but he just couldn't cry any longer. He just sat there thinking about what just happened and what he would do next.

Both didn't manage to do anything productive on that day and after a day of sadness, anger and tears both went to bed. Alone. Thinking about the other one but alone. Crying until they fell asleep

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