My Best Nightmare?

In His Own Hands

I'll edit tomorrow____
Small hums escaped from Blue as he later in his bed. He could see the small soul glowing unlike he had for those past many months. He loved looking at it- At her, and the small bundle of magic that surrounded it.
"Soon...soon my little baby girl"
Only a couple moments later Blue heard the oven beep, telling him that the cake he was making for himself and Cross was done. He slowly got up, walking into the kitchen to already see Cross waiting with Falx. The little baby was still a little young for most things, including cake, but he loved living the spoon with chocolate frosting. When he did this Cross and Blue would laugh, cooing and talking to the small child they both loved...like Blue loved Palette, how he still loved him...
"Blue?.."
Letting out a small sigh, Blue looked back up at Cross with a somber smile.
"Are you ok-?"
"Yes Im fine, alright?"
"Mm...ok..."
Giving Blue a nice quick squeeze, Cross walked away. After getting his own slice of cake and putting away the rest, Blue just picked at the fluffy frosted pastry until he came to the conclusion that he was no longer hungry... Just the thought of Palette made him loose what little apatite he had, even with the baby.
"Tell me when your hungry little one... I'm just not in the mood anymore..."
Once the rest of his cooking mess was almost cleaned up, Blue sighed and started thinking again.
"It's been a couple months since I've thought like this... I don't know what to think..."
Feeling his belly poke the counter as he scrubbed it accidentally, Blue looked down and giggled.
"Oh my little Starlight, you would have adored your cousin. Just like he would've you...I know I tell you that a lot... But I do because it's true my sweet baby..."
Realizing how dumb he must've sounded talking to his child that couldn't here him, Blue just finished up cleaning before sitting back down. He let out a long sigh, until he hear his phone go off. He didn't even bother looking at the contacts, he just yanked out his phone and answered it, to tired by the small task that he had just done to care who it was.
"Hello?"
"Blue?.."
That slight amount of exhaustion that Blue was experiencing went away instantly when he heard that voice... Ink's voice... What could he want? What was there left to want? Did he think Blue wanted something maybe?.. Blue wish he knew but if he did then he wouldn't be asking himself so many questions... The long silence made Ink sigh, then start to speak again.
"I know I'm the last person you want to talk to...but-"
"But?"
"But...I need to talk to you..."
"I would think, since you're calling me right now..."
The small half hearted chuckled Ink let out got no response from Blue, so he decided to stop and just continue talking.
"U-Um anyways, Blue...I'm...I'm sorry about what happened...that night...with Dream... I should've-"
"But you didn't Ink... You didn't stop me, or even try to stop Dream..."
"I know...and Im sorry... But that's in the past now Blue..."
The past, a word like that used so soon and so loosely made Blue cackle. Ink said nothing, and only listened to his former friend laugh at his words... Eventually the laughter subsided enough for Ink to continue.
"...Dream...he can't admit it, he won't...but he deserves to meet his niece or nephew-"
"Wow! Deserves is definitely a strong word!"
Blue said through the tightly clenched teeth. Deserved? What do they deserve- Either of them? After what they did, to him! And they deserved this.
"He's sorry, he didn't-"
"Oh now he's sorry!? And I bet he must've said that- How sorry he was that he wanted you to apologize for him!?"
Ink wanted to say that was true- That a conversation like that had taken place in the past eight months...but all that has happened was fighting, and arguing...about what should be right...what shouldn't have happened...stubborn thoughts, from such an opinionated spouse that had made Ink's life difficult up until then...and most likely afterwards...
"He didn't say it, but I know he's sorry I know he is-"
"I don't care even if he is! He did this! He had to live the consequences like you do! If he wants to say sorry then let him!-... And I'd you're really sorry...let me see my nephew..."
The silence that followed gave Blue enough of an answer that he needed. He was about to hang up- When again Ink started to speak.
"Im sorry-"
"...I bet you are now..."
Blue heard the words spoken to him after that...but he didn't care, he just wanted it to be over... He hung up, and for a moment he didn't do anything...he just stood there with warm tears dripping down his round cheeks... The anger, the sadness, the intense emotion that he was feeling was so familiar...it's such a horrible way... Before he even knew it, Blue had wound his arm up and flung his phone at the wall. It shattered into a few pieces just as he began screaming... This, this was what he needed...to truly let out that emotion...that internal suffering that he just let fester in him finally come out then...those few tears before, later...would never match up to the ones being shed now...
He collapsed onto the floor, shaking and holding himself in his own arms until someone else could...someone else would, hold him close again...and help him escape his pain again...