Aftermath (our tragic story)

20. Revelation

"You really make me proud." Rays said when she visited me in my condo. "It's been years since you stayed here again."

"Feels like I am really home. I can breathe normally." I said while sipping on my coffee.

"Lays, you don't have to be hard on yourself. I always go to you, girl! I'm always your RAYS of sunshine..." We both laugh and stared at the view. Even at my lowest, Rays is still staying. She is always with me through ups and downs.

From: Love

I'm already home. The shoot finished early. Please, come back home. I miss you.

After reading Timothy's message, the wind changed and fate is telling me to go home and talk about our relationship but my heart doesn't want it yet.

"You should talk to him. Don't let your love for him or his love for you die because you didn't let him talk." Rays said out of the blue. "You can leave me here." I stood up and change my clothes quickly.

"Please stay here," I said to Rays and leave quickly. I tried calling Timothy but he is not answering it. I rushed my car to Timothy's place and luckily there is no traffic.

"Hi Ma'am!" The receptionist in the lobby greeted me. I smiled and ride the elevator.

"Love-" When I opened the door with the passcode, my lips were parted when I saw a woman inside his place and sitting on the couch.

"Rain." Timothy is also surprised that I showed up in his or should I say our house. "Ah, she is Max..."

"Your ex-girlfriend, I know," I said holding my breath so I can hold my tears. "What is she doing here?" 

"Hi, I'm Maxine... Max. I'm here because I am... pregnant." She is what?...

"P-pregnant? Who's the father?" I said. After hearing those words, my eyes were filled with my tears.

"I'm afraid to say but it's Timothy," Maxine said and my knees got weak so I stumbled down.

"Rain. Come, let's talk." Timothy pulled me up and carry me to the bedroom. "Love, let me explain."

"When?" I said while continuously crying. "How? How dare you." 

"I'm sorry, Love. But it's what you think." He said and kneeling while I'm sitting at the edge of our bed.

"Where did it happen? Here? In our bed?!" I asked but when he nodded I burst my emotion and got really really mad.

"Calm down, please. I'm sorry."

"Timothy... am I not enough? What did I do?" I said and leaned against the wall.

"She got back from the US and we have a little party here when you are away. We both got drunk and I thought it was you but no..." He explained. "But I know it's not mine because I know I used protection." 

"What the fuck. You are already admitting that something happened. Cheater." I said and quickly get the luggage I left and put all my clothes inside the bag. Timothy is not stopping me because he knows what he did.

"Love, please. I will let you have a rest but please, go back home."

"No. I used to live with a broken family and I don't want to give that to an innocent child." 

"What do you mean?"

"I am... breaking up with you," I said and faced him properly. "Please be a good father. I do love you but I need to go away." I hugged him and kissed his lips. I pulled the bags and leave the house for good.

Those words are still echoing in my mind and I keep on crying because of that. The fear inside me already woke up again. I hope, letting him go is worth it.

"Hey, what happened- Lays." Rays said when she saw me zoning out when I already opened my door.

"She is pregnant," I whispered and Rays hugged me and carry me to the sofa.

"Oh my God... Why is this happening again?" Rays said and when I already felt the warmth of her presence I began to cry hard.

After Rays comforted me, I stood up to drink water and pulled my luggage to my room. I also said to Rays she can use the other room if she want to stay. I opened my phone and saw a lot of missed calls and messages from Timothy.

From: Love

You didn't mean to break up, right?

From: Love

Come back home. I'm sorry

From: Love

Please, take care of yourself. I love you so much. Don't starve yourself and be happy every day. I'm sorry for hurting you this bad but I will make it to you soon. Go and have a rest my love... I'll see you again.

To: Love

Take care of yourself too. I loved you...

After I sent the message, I blocked his number and even unfollowed him on all my social media accounts. I'm already starting to cut my connections to him. I looked out the window and saw how beautiful my view is.

its_laysss: I already knew the reason. I promised that I will fix it but I think fate doesn't want me to fix it because it's already broken. The sun is already taking a rest so do I. I will find myself again. I do love you but now it's I LOVED YOU.

Starting a fresh start doesn't mean I will leave the things behind. I'm just restarting my journey with new people and with the people that choose to stay beside me. Taking a rest after a long flight doesn't mean you are already giving up. 

Sometimes, choosing rest is more important than choosing to live our chaotic life. Pains and traumas are the most tragic moments in our life that we can't get up. After the rest just fight again, you are bigger than everything.

"Hey Lays, do you want to apply to a small company?" Rays asked. "I'm also applying as a producer.

"What is that company?" I answered.

"Music and Entertainment Company, It's Live Hit Entertainment. They are looking for some producers and I'm applying." Rays explained. 

"Okay. It's been a year since I'm resting. And I don't want to to travel anymore." I replied.

"Live Hit Entertainment." 

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