Captain.....

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wow it's almost been a year since i touched this story. oops. well enjoy the story :p
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Eren's POV

    while i'm showering i remind myself on how much of a burden and mistake i am. captain has seen me cry multiple times. no one was ever supposed to see me so vulnerable. it's so embarrassing. i'm a man, i'm supposed to be strong (btw you don't always have to be strong ;) no matter the gender. if you are struggling reach out. if you want a hug ask for one. ur not alone <3) why was i ever given a life

    after i finish showering i realize i forgot my long sleeve in my room so i put my towel around my waist and go out to see caption sitting on my bed as if he has been waiting this entire time. "captain?" he turns towards be and gazes his eyes down my body and i realize i am literally naked except for a towel around my waist. wait. my arms are out right now. shit.

   i grab my long sleeve and run before he could say anything. i hope he didn't see my arms. no no. none of this was supposed to happen. ugh all i do is mess up. i quickly slip my long sleeve on before i take any longer than i already have.

Levi's POV

   i put my face into my hands. how embarrassing i didn't think he would be out so quick. ugh. i was about to leave when i heard the bathroom door open. i need to ask him about what is going on with him. right now is not an appropriate time, i will ask after breakfast.

as we both walk in everyone is staring at us. "tch, what do you think your looking at". i smirk to myself as i see them turn back to their food quickly. as eren and i grab our food we sit down. "today's schedule is different." i say catching their attention again. "we will be training today" i glance over to eren who is spaced out on his food that he is playing with. i mentally sigh and go back to talking. "the new cadets will be joining us today and you will be nice to them" i say while glancing at eld who looks away quickly. "that is all i have to say finish breakfast and get your uniforms on" they all say "yes sir" which pulls eren out of his trance.

Eren's POV

i wonder what i'll be doing today. probably just being used by hange against because the only thing they want me for is my titan form. cutting has helped me control turning into a titan so we will see where it takes me today. i let out a breath i didn't know i was holding. i look up only to make eye contact with captain. i look away as fast as possible and take a small bite of my food trying not to gag. i really hate eating. especially whatever i am eating right now. i look around the table to see the same expressions as me and realize it is probably petras cooking. i try to not laugh or smile but i can't help but laugh hard. " HAHAHAHA" i fall to the ground laughing with tears brimming my eyes. this is priceless.

petra being a bad cook is so funny. i realize how loud i am laughing and look up to see them all staring at me. as i regain my composure i stand up and clear my throat. "sorry" i say awkwardly. it is still silent after a minute. anxiety starts to creep up on me as i twirl my fingers together until captain speaks. "follow me eren". shit i messed up. now my anxiety is really acting up.

  i get pulled out of my thoughts as i bump into captain. "sorry" i mutter. "you have been acting weird these past few days, tell me what is going on. if you are suffering ask for help don't push those feelings down until they become to much" captain...cares? i seem to of said that out loud because captain has a slight change of expression. he looks shocked. "why are you looking at me like that" i shrink into myself as i play with my sleeve.

  i gasp as he pulls me by my wrist very gently which i am surprised by. i am once again pulled out of my thoughts as he stops and i realize we are on the roof, it's not as pretty during the day. it's silent until captain finally speaks up. "eren." his stern voice is hot- i mean scary. "y-yes?" fuck. of course i stutter. i start to back up until i hit the wall of the roof. "do you think we don't care about you?" i look away trying to figure out how to answer his question. "answer me" i look at him and his expression is serious with a little bit of concern. "u-uhm no sir" i say shrinking into myself again and looking down.

  i see his head fall as i answer that. i feel my eyes getting hot and i start to shake. 'why would anyone care about you' 'go kill your self' 'you are on a roof' i feel a hand on my face pulling me out of the trance i was stuck in. captain looks so sad. "why do you look sad?" i say unknowingly confused. "we care about you so much even if it doesn't show we all do care about you...especially me" he mumbles the last part but it doesn't stop me from hearing it. i feel my heart speed up a bit after the last part. why am i feeling this way.

Levi's POV

   i wish i could show him how much we all care about him. even if the team doesn't show it they do. they're just scared of being near a titan all the time and it's understandable that they keep their guard up most of the time. i tilt his head up with my hand on his chin. he looks so sad. we hold eye contact as we explore each other's eyes trying to find something they both couldn't place. something comes over me as i lean down and kiss (yes eren's is shorter in this bc it's my story. even if tall eren's hot it doesn't matter 🖕🏼)

Eren's POV

  did levi just..... kiss me? am i kissing back. i've never kissed anyone before. my breath hitches as he slides his tongue into my mouth and explores it like he is trying to find treasure. i groan into his mouth and twirl my tongue around his. am i doing this right?? he retracts his tongue and we are now very sloppily making out. i bite his lip and he grunts. as i pull away for air he is also panting.

  "l-levi" i say confused, dazed, and breathless. "what brat?" he says as if he didn't just shove his tongue down throat..... (pls levi do that to me 😩😩😩) "why did you do that..?" i say confused still. "i wanted to"

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well that was an adventure and i hope you liked it. that is the first time i've written something in awhile so i hope it isn't too bad. :p bye byeee