𝘔𝘦𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘰𝘪𝘢 -TubboxReader-

Chapter 12

⚠TW⚠ ANXIETY ATTACK⚠

-Y/n's POV-

The numbing sensation was everywhere; goosebumps covered my whole body. I tried to catch my breath, but it only made it worst.

I held my chest feeling the pounding of thunder coming from my heart. I stood there paralyzed; my legs felt like jello.

My vision became hazy, making it difficult to see what was in front of me. All I could see was a blurry figure.

I could tell that I was about to collapse to the floor. As I was falling, I could feel someone catch me. They placed me in their lap, holding me tight.

I tried to get away from them, but they just held me tighter. "It's me, Tubbo, your friend that you've been living with for the past 2 months. There's no one else here, it's just you and me, ok? Just copy my breathing," Tubbo said.

I listened to his heartbeat and tried to match mine to his. After 5 minutes, my heart became quiet and matched up with the rhythm of Tubbo's.

⚠TW - OVER ⚠

My vision soon come back to me and I could see I saw who was holding me. I Instantly grabbed onto them for dear life.

Still shaken up from the past events, I then began to cry into their shoulder. "Shh.. sh.. everything's going to be ok. She can't hurt you anymore. It's only me here," they spoke in a soft tone.

A few moments later, my cries became quieter, reaching the end of my breakdown. "I'm sorry," I said whilst my voice cracked from crying.

"No no, don't say sorry, you did nothing wrong Y/n," Tubbo said from behind me. I looked up to finally meet the boy who was holding me tight in his arms.

"I'm still sorry," I said quietly, looking back down at my lap. Seconds later, I feel a finger under my chin. My head was lifted up from looking at my lap to looking the boy straight into his eyes.

"Y/n L/n, you have nothing to say sorry for. You had an anxiety attack from interacting with your Mother. You had no control over it and you shouldn't be sorry for something you can't control," Tubbo stated looking straight at me making sure I understood.

I nodded my head yes showing him I understood. We hugged for a little bit longer until there was a ding.

Tubbo move slightly so he could get his phone out of his pocket in his hoodie.

- Wilbur 🐳 -

W - Are you guys ok we heard a lot of yelling

T - Yeah we're ok sorry for the yelling

W - it's ok, we were all just worried that you guys got hurt

T - I'm not hurt but Y/n is not ok, so we're probably just going to chill

W - ok I'll tell everyone and disconnect you guys from the call

T - thank you Wilbur

W - No problem mate

"Who was that," I said quietly trying to make sure my voice didn't crack. "It was Wilbur, he was checking if we were ok because they could hear yelling from our side of the Vc," Tubbo said putting away his phone.

"Oh," I said. "Don't worry, I didn't tell them what actually went down," Tubbo said. "Ok," I replied back.

"Let's do something, anything, you pick," Tubbo said happily trying to lighten up the mood. I nodded and got up from Tubbo's lap.

I helped Tubbo up, then proceeded to think of what to do. "Can we do face masks?" I asked. Tubbo nodded yes in response.

I jump up and down and grabbed Tubbo's hand dragging him to the bathroom to do face masks. I open one of the drawers and pulled out two face masks that I had.

"Do you know how to put on a face mask?" I asked Tubbo. He shook his head no. "Ok, then I'll do mine first and then do yours," I said happily.

I sat in the sink while doing mine because it just made it easier. I soon finished mine, "Ok it's your turn now Tubbo," I said turning around.

I waited for Tubbo to come back into the bathroom. "Why are you sitting on the counter?" he questioned coming into the bathroom.

"I don't know really," I said. Tubbo then stood in front of me. "Ok, where do we start then?" he said looking at me.

I then scooped out some of the face mask lotion with my finger and dragged it across his forehead. "Simba," I said after which made us burst into laughter.

Soon, I finished his face mask. He moved away from me and I jumped off the counter so that we could admire our work.

"Ooo... Can we talk a picture?" I said excitedly. "Sure why not," Tubbo said padding the top of my head.

@Y/u_

@Tubbolive Thanks for doing a face mask with me. Simba! lol 😂

@Tommyinnit - Simp

Reply to @Tommyinnit - Not even

@Wilbursoot - Awww cute

@Nihaachuu - we should do face masks sometime

Reply to @Nihaachuu - Yass that would be so fun

- Time skip -

We had washed our face masks off and were now watching a movie in Tubbo's room. I didn't pick it so it was a horror movie because Tubbo always wants to watch horror.

I'm not really a big fan of horror but I didn't say anything. The movie wasn't that scary until there was a jumpscare.

I flinched once I heard the scream from the TV. I grabbed onto Tubbo's arm. "Is someone scared?" Tubbo said sarcastically.

I didn't answer and just buried my head into Tubbo's shoulder. " It's ok, come here," he said lifting his arm up and placing it over me to pull me closer to him.

I laid my head on his chest, moving one of my arms over him. We continued the movie, and every once in a while I would get scared, but when I did Tubbo would hug me tight and check if I was okay, which was nice of him. Honestly, I couldn't ask for anything better.

The past 2 months have been the best except for today, but this makes up for it. I'm sure that this time I developed a tiny crush on Tubbo.

What am I saying, I have fallen head over heels for him, but I knew he'll never like me back so I'll keep it to myself... minus Asmiys and Nikki since I think they've known for a while.

As the movie was about to finish, my eyes got droopy. I was too tired to fight back the urge to fall asleep. I soon let myself drift off into dreamland.

(Hi peoples, I hope you enjoyed this chapter. This one took me a minute to write. I will say that in the next few chapters there's going to be a lot of  TW. They're not major ones but I will still give warnings. Well that's all remember to drink water and eat something.)