Just a fan..

Chapter 3.

When I walk in my door, my mum was sitting there. Staring at the wall. I walk up to her and she asks me why I'm home so early. I explain to her and she freaks out and sends me to my room. She treats me like I'm 8 or something.
I check Jakes Twitter to see that he is holding a competition to go to his house for a whole day and to film YouTube videos with him. His tweet
"I'm going to do a competition where one of you have the chance to spend the day with me, filming videos, sound good?"
"I was thinking the hashtag could be #JakeMitchellsCompetition easy hashtag? Just spam reasons why you think should win"
"And I will go through the hashtags and choose my favourite entry, competition closes on Saturday 18th April 2015"

I enter it. Who wouldn't? I probably won't win or if I did mum probably wouldn't let me, but it's worth a try, it's Friday 17th today. Wish me luck.

I write my entry for the comp on my memo pad

So, Jake, basically you have done so much for me lately. You make me so happy and you mean the world to me. I don't know what I'd do without you, I'm not going into to much information on here because I don't want many people knowing, I only trust you, that's why I DM you things. But what I'm saying is, I live in Manchester and there's no way of me getting to meet you, so this comp would actually be the best thing ever. Your my idol. I know so many people haven't met you and we all have the same chance but I may as well enter and try. You saved me Jake. I feel like you listen to me when I have nobody else to talk to. You always tell me that your just a message away. Thanks for everything you do for me once again, I don't think I'd still be here writing this if it wasn't for you, thanks.
@JakeeyForJake1.
I enter it.
I tweet
"Here's the reason I think I should win your competition, please consider me in winning? I love you #JakeMitchellsCompetition
~insert picture~

Then my mum comes up to my room. She sits next to me and gives me a hug and apologises to me.
I look at her and she looks at me and smiles.
Mum; "I love you Jade. I'm sorry for everything"
Me; "love you too mum"

Then Jake dms me
"Please don't put this on twitter or anything and I'm not promising, I seen your entry and it made me cry"
"My dad agreed in me giving you my phone number, don't give it away to anyone. I can trust you can't I? like you trust me"
"07******567 here, if you ever need me, text me, I'm always here for you, I really want to meet you soon, love you"
I reply
"Omg Jake, thanks so much. I won't give it to anyone at all and I won't annoy you like I annoy everyone else"
"Thanks for everything you have done for me. You mean everything to me and I hope I meet you soon, love you"

Me; "mum, do you know that youtuber I'm in love with?
Mum; "Jake Mitchell?"
Me; "yeah, well basically he's doing a competition where you get to go to his house for the whole day and get to film videos for his YouTube channel with him. Not saying I'm going to win but I've entered it. Would you let me go?"
Mum; "I don't know, I hardly have money Jade, you probably won't win anyway. Loads of people will enter"
Me; "true, but if I win, would you let me?"
Mum; "we'll see"
My mum doesn't know half the things Jake has done for me. She doesn't know about him saving me or giving me his number. She doesn't know that I feel like he loves me more than she does, but I really hope she lets me go if I won.
Me; "I love Jake mum and to meet him it would make me so happy"
Mum; "your happy anyway, you don't need him to make you happy anyway, I bet that Jake boy is like the same with every fan anyway, I don't wanna hear his name, I don't care, you'll never actually get him, but I'm tired and it's 11pm and I'm shattered, goodnight"
Me; "night mum"
I tweet
"When you feel like just giving up. I don't know what to do anymore. No one will care if I'm gone"
Jake tweets me
"I care, don't ever say that, dm me your number, quickly"
I just cry. I just lock my phone and try to ignore him. I then receive another dm
"Jade please, talk to me?"
"Jade"
"Jade"
"Hello"
"Jade babe, reply"
"I care about you. I always will"
I unlock my phone
"You don't care. Nobody cares."
he replies
"I do, I promise, I do, who said I dont, if I didn't care, I wouldn't have your notifs on"
I reply
"Why do you have my notifs on"
He replies
"Because I care and I know when your sad you'll tweet things. If I didn't care I wouldn't of give you my number"
I cry even more.
He continues
"Text me so I can save your number?"
I reply
"Right"
I then try and sleep. Why should I give Jake my number when he doesn't care? Nobody cares.
I then receive a text message
"Haha I found your number from previous dms, hi jade it's jake"
~he facetimes need~
I answer and enroll the camera so he can't see my face.
Jake says
"Jade, don't listen to anyone. I care about you. I'm sure others so. I'm sure they do. I love you so much and you don't realise how much I actually love you. Please listen. I care.
I reply
"My mum said you don't care. She said I'll never meet you either, your the same with everyone"
Jake replies
"I'm not. I'm only like this with you. I love all of my fans but I love you. I really do"
I reply
"You don't but ok, I have to go now anyway because my mum is in bed. She will only... Never mind, goodnight"
Jake replies
"Text me and I love you"
~end of facetime~
Jake tweets
"Do you ever just really really like someone but you can't have them?, because same"
I reply to his tweet
"me"
I then tweet
"Goodnight @jtgoeslive I love you, thanks for everything sunshine"