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Chapter 5.

Jades pov

I'm still not over it. He picked me. I just feel so special and I know he doesn't love me like I love him but I'm over the moon. I just need to sort it out with mum. Mum won't let me. I then receive a call off Jake.
Jake; "hi bab- I mean Jade"
Me; "oh hi, Jake, ummm.. I don't think my mums going to let me you know.. She hates me talking about you. She hates me and.. and.."
Jake; "calm down. I'll make sure you get to come down, I need you in my li- I mean I need to meet you. I understand what it feels like but I'm not picking no other person. You will get down here, I promise you.
Me; "well I don't think I'm getting down there Jake. You really don't understand but I'm literally so disappointed in myself right now"
Jake; "why, why would you be disappointed in yourself?"
Me; "well basically, do you know like I was 150 days clean, well-"
Jake; "yes?"
Me; "well I broke it. Stupidly went and done it again. Do you want to know why? Because I can't meet my happiness. That's why"
Jake; "don't be disappointed in yourself Jade, I'm always here for you and I promise you, you'll get to see me soon, I'm happy with you no matter what, okay"
Me; "right.. Ok, I'm gonna have to go, mums coming up and she'll only wanna know who I'm speaking to, bye, I love you"
Jake; "don't leave me haha,
Me; "I have to haha"
Jake; "aw, well I love you"
-end of phone call-

My mum walks in to my room and asks me if I want any food. I tell her no and she says I'm pathetic and stupid because I want to loose weight and she doesn't think I need to.

Me; "mum, no I am not pathetic"
Mum; "your an attention seeker. now you have to eat"
Me; "I DONT WANT TO EAT! MUM I KNOW WHEN IM HUNGRY OK. I KNOW"
Mum; "oh and why do you never ever take your cardigan off, why do you never ever wear shorts?"
Me; "I don't like my legs or arms. I mean I'm so pale... I"
Mum; "stop being stupid. Jade your my daughter and to me your perfect.
Me; "but mum I don't feel it. I really don't, please"
Mum; "well I'm going out anyway, I can't be bothered with your bull, you know your not fat or anything. Your an attention seeker"
Then my mum storms out of my room slamming the door behind her.
I just sit and cry. I don't want to be here anymore. I really don't.
Jake then texts me
"Could I maybe pick you up today Jade? I don't know. Dad said he doesn't mind x"
I text back
"I would love that, mums gone out and I don't know when she'll be back, its up to you and your dad.

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By 3pm Jake arrives at my front door. He knocks on my door and I look through the spy hole to see who it is. There he is. I just burst into tears and open it slowly. He looks and me and smiles. I walk closer to him and he hugs me tight. He then shuts my door and walks beside me into his car. I sit in the back of his dad's car and he decides to sit next to me. Then jakes dad says.

Rob; "wow, you must be special. Jake never sits in the back of the car. He loves the passenger seat"
Jake then goes bright red and grins at me.

I just wish he felt the same about me.. I mean I just wish I was his everything and wish I had a chance with him. He moves closer to me and puts his fingers across my thighs and I push his hand away. I just didn't feel comfortable in him doing this. He then looks at me and smiles.

Jakes pov

I know. I'm stupid. I just couldn't help it. I feel so damn sorry for her. I feel that she gets abused a lot at home. I just don't have the right to say anything, she has a gigantic bruise on her cheek going down her neck. I don't know. I just wish she could stay with me forever. I already feel like I know her.

Then we arrive at my house. My dad gives me a confused look and says "your a bit too close to her aren't you? Let her breathe?
I say to him "shhh, your so embarrassing, I'm sure she loves it"

Then Jade just laughs.

Jades Pov

Why would Jake actually move really close to me? Why would he put his hand over my lap? I'm confused. I mean even if he did like me, which he doesn't, why would he want to do that so fast? I would obviously love him to be my boyfriend and he is of corse boyfriend material but... I don't know, I'm worthless.

We both get out of the car, Jake holds the car door open for me and smiles. I then stay still and freeze.