our story (sakuatsu omegaverse)

chapter 3

I end up not going to yaku's party.

I send him and kawa a text and explain everything that happen to kawa

Kawa said he wanted to visit me but I said "no you go have fun, you can visit me tomorrow"

I'm in my hotel room, the pain on my neck isn't as painful as it is back when I saw him, I wonder why all of the sudden my neck just got in pain, I can't even breath properly after that

I already took a shower and change into my some sweats and t shirt, I grab my laptop and open google

I search up "alpah's and omega's bond"

Then a few article pop up and read some, but one article caught my attention

When alpha's and omega's bond they usually didn't notice it at first because you can't feel it, a bond usually happens when you feel a strong connection to you significant other.

For example you guys already met at some point but somehow you forgot, that usually the reason why a bond started to form without you even knowing it, why you may ask? Well until this day no one ever knew why

But one thing is for sure, within that bond love always find it's way in

"sakusa and I don't love each other though ...." I think to myself

Or the most common why a bond was attached

Either they make love out of true love and pure attachment, a bond that is incredibly strong and almost impossible to break

Or a force bond that is dangerous, this bond is the same as all the other bond but this bond was not made out of love but pure hatred and jealousy

Why did it create a bond even though they hate each other? It is because in every hate there is love.

And some other question is that can a bond be unattached? The answer is no.

And the last bond is the distance bond

a bond that has been craving for his other half for such a long time, finally reunited

but instead of that refreshing and happy feeling, this feeling is more painful because for some people it cause by hatred or disappoint

this bond is usually made out of love but even though it was made by love

the painful feeling will always accrue

the only way to get rid of the ugly feeling is to fix your relationship with your lover.

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For fuck sake that was useless

But my bond ... was it love? Was it force? Probably

Or was it the distance bond? That makes more sense

But again, I don't know

I sigh, I'm tired

Should I meet him tomorrow? I need to clear things with him ...

After 4 years being with him, oh sorry being in this force marriage with him all I felt was disappointment  and ... I'm just tired

What's the point of this marriage anyways? He already has a lover here

Why still keeping this marriage?

....

I'm calling dad after this ....