Young

24- Salvation

"Okay..so going back to the beginning: you said you were going to Billie's cousin's cabin to stay because your mom's boyfriend..raped you?" The police officer asked in the room I've been in the whole night.

"Yes" I responded, tired.

"And Billie had no part in this, right?" He clarified again.

"Yes." I said, looking him in the eye.

"I want to go home" I said, my eyes watering, holding my baby.

"Okay, I just need to make this a copy and your all set" He stacked all his papers up, standing up from the chair.

"Thank you" I said, tending to a fussy Moira.

"Yep"

He walked out, closing the door behind him.

I looked at Moira, my little baby.

"I'm sorry" I said to her sadly, fixing her little shirt that was exposing her little belly.

I put her through so much...

Why would I do this so her?

Is having a happy family that hard?!

She whined, waking up out of her sleep.

She looked up at me before reaching her hand up and grabbing my nipple through my shirt and bra.

"Shhhhh I turned the chair away from the camera and door, lifting up my shirt for my baby.

She rubbed her mouth on me before latching on.

She closed her eyes again as my milk started to flow.

I want to be better for her...

But I don't know if I can..

                         Time Skip

"Sh-sh-sh-sh" I patted her back while she ate.

"And then what did they say?" My mom asked, sitting on my bed with me while I fed my baby.

"And then he says "We can't press charges unless we get a dna test/pap smear and...I don't feel comfortable doing that.." I said, looking down.

I really didn't want them to see the other sperm that was in there.

And that I was a couple months pregnant.

I don't even know how I'm gonna explain to them who got me pregnant!

Fuck my life.

"Well you know you're not going to be able to press charges against him without evidence, y/n!" She exclaimed softly, putting her hands up.

"I-I know!" I met her eyes again before looking away with watery ones.

I'm a terrible fucking liar...

"Y/n—"

"I'm-I-I-I want to go to bed" I stuttered, looking at the ground.

"But—"

"Please mom? I've had a long night of answering enough questions, I just want to sleep.." I said softly, looking at my baby.

"Ok, goodnight sweetheart" She said quietly, kissing my head before going out.

I sighed laying back in my bed.

How am I gonna tell my mom I don't wanna take a Pap smear because I don't want them to see Billie's cum in me!

Let alone a baby!

I started to fall into a panic attack but quickly tried to calm myself by rubbing my babies back.

I took a deep, deep breath before laying her in her crib and laying down myself.

I just want to take my mind off of this.

I slid my hand down my flat stomach and into my panties and pj's.

Just to help me sleep....

"Mm..mama" I heard Moira whine.

"Ughhhh"

                         Time Skip

I woke up to Moira babbling, making me open my eyes.

I turned my head towards her to see her staring already.

I stared for a second, before smiling a little.

She stared at me too before smiling back.

"Good morning, baby" I whispered, crawling over to her crib next to my bed and grabbing her out.

"Say "good morning mommy!" I said in a baby voice, kissing her little cheek.

She stared at my chest, making me laugh before cradling her.

I lifted my shirt and latched her on.

I need to find my phone..

She whined before throwing up all over me.

"Oh. My. God" I hung my mouth open while she continued.

She whined before throwing up more, through her nose.

"Mamama" She sobbed, shivering in disgust.

"Shhh, your okay! It's okay baby!" I rubbed her little back, grabbing a towel from next to me.

She let me clean her up before we went into the bathroom to take a mommy-baby shower.

"My poor baby" I pouted, rinsing her little body off first.

She looked up at me upset while I rubbed my wet hand on her face to wash it.

"I know my baby, you don't feel good" I moaned, rubbing her soft back.

After I was done, I held her close to me, making her hug me and lay her head down on my shoulder.

"Awwww" I hummed, patting her butt.

She whimpered, before throwing up down my back.

What the fuck.