Death Dance || Hyunlix

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felix pov

i sighed as i dangled my feet over the ledge, wishing i had the guts to do it. i gazed down at the city beneath me, unfazed by the hundreds of feet between my body and the ground.

jump.

do it. it'll be better for everyone.

i shook my head lightly and rubbed my eyes, fighting off sleep. i grabbed my phone and checked the time, wincing at the bright light.

4:32am.

i was kind of shocked at the time, but i didn't really care. i groaned as i realized i had to be at school in 4 hours. i carelessly swung my legs to the side, forcing myself to stand up.

i made my way towards the door to the roof and flung it open, letting it slam behind me without a care. i took the elevator to the 4th floor from the 20th floor, stepping inside and letting the doors shut.

when i stepped out, i walked to a door and began ruffling through my pocket for the key to the door. soon enough i was in my room, stripping and changing into a pair of sweatpants and leaving my shirt off. i slid into my bed and stared at my ceiling until my alarm went off at 7am.

why didn't i just do it?
people at school wouldn't care.
i'm the outcast, they bully me.

i groaned at the annoying sound emitting from my phone, reaching over and slapping the 'off' button and sitting up. i hadn't slept at all, just stared at my ceiling for hours lost in thought.

i grabbed a large baby blue hoodie from my closet, along with a pair of black skinny jeans. i hooked a chain through the belt loop and put on some white platform combat boots, checking myself in the mirror before moving to the bathroom.

the bruises from yesterday were still purple, littering my freckled cheeks with pain. i was everyone's target at school. if they wanted something to take their anger out on, you guessed it; me. i was basically the universal punching bag.

i didn't mind it though, my mind told me i deserved it.

i didn't bother to try and cover up the bruises, since the bullies would see my clean face and want to mess it up more. 

i sighed, looking at my reflection one last time as i realized the dark bags under my eyes. i shrugged at myself, moving to grab my bag and locking the door behind me as i left. i began the short walk to school, keeping my head down any time i passed someone.

when i finally reached the school, i walked in silently and kept my head down, trying to make my way to my class before anyone could intercept me. which failed.

"haha blondie, thought you could get past us without a word, huh?" one of the boys called, causing my pace to speed up.

i heard footsteps behind me and before i could react, i was yanked back by my hoodie. i didn't have time to catch myself so i fell backwards onto the tiled floor, silently thanking my bag for catching the fall for my head. i heard chuckles from above me and i just stayed silent, slowly sitting up.

"get up, bitch." one of them said harshly, snatching the front of my hoodie and yanking me up effortlessly. i allowed it to happen, leaving my voice silent.

"you don't speak?? answer him." one of the others said. i looked up at him with a blank expression, blinking slowly as i continued to look at him.

i barely batted an eye as a fist from a 3rd boy connected to my cheekbone, allowing them to do as they pleased.

"why aren't you fighting back whore??" the first one said, who i knew was chan. he had attacked me countless times before. i shrugged in his grasp as the other boys took turns hitting me.