A Thought A Day

does it?

Does it show that I'm insecure?
Does it show that I'm am not as confident as I claim to be?
Does it show that I'm scared of being rejected?
Does it show that I'm still a little childish in the way I behave?
Does it show that I'm awkward when I'm around people?
Does it show that I'm trying so hard to cover up my real self so that I can be included?
Does it show that I don't know what to say or how to say it?
Does it show that I'm not sure of who I am and what I'm doing?
If it does then, hello, it's me an awkward kid, trying to figure this things out
It's me trying so hard to not be left out and feel like an outcast
It's me trying to fight the tears that are threatening to fall down anytime, because I feel so confused
I feel like I'm lost but I don't even know where I belong
I feel like I'm showing my weaknesses so openly and I can't do anything about it
I feel like they can see straight through my walls, walls that I build every night before I wake up
If it does show, I don't know whether to apologize or pretend to not care that it shows
I don't know when I'll know what to do
Or how to do it, but it can't be that long till I know right?