OW! FUC-" i had accidentally spilled boiling water on my wrist, i had rushed to the bathroom and ran the water till it was cool not cold and placed my wrist under the water.
"Idiot!" I whispered to myself.
It has been 3 weeks since I met johnny; He waits for me by the gate almost every time I go out for groceries, he waits for me and he escorts me to the store and back.
I wondered what he thought of me and I decided to end my thoughts and continue to wrap my wrist in bandages.
I walked to the couch and reached for the remote then I scanned through different tv channels I put on the news and the news reporter said "There had been a massacre here in Cafe le prick, we have reported that the main suspect is a twig goth bo-".
I quickly shut the T.V. off, there is nothing good on the news; i sighed " these months are passing so slow." Knock knock!
I sat up then walked over to the door and opened it "Hello?" I peeked my head out and saw Nny standing by my door, "Hi Y/N! Wadya doing?? How are ya??" in confusion i answered "i'm doing okayish? Why?" he pulled out two brain freezes from nowhere.
"Oh, do you wanna come in?" I gestured to him to head inside, "Sure!" he smiles and hops over to the couch.
I closed the door and locked it, he shot his head back "You didn't answer my question Y/N!" I sat next to him " I was just watching television earlier before you came." I smiled at him, he looked at me blushing then he shouted " I N-NEED TO USE THE RESTROOM THANK YOU" then he bolted to the bathroom, WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO? DO I SMELL? DO I LOOK WEIRD??.
A few minutes later he had returned "Sorry for the outburst, i just uh- needed to think about something" he awkwardly smiled at me.
He sat down and placed his head on my shoulder. I'm not very fond of affection but this is nice; it makes me feel closer to johnny, he slides over the brain freezy and it seemed like he finished it. "Nny, i wanna ask you something."
he looks at me and trembles "yeah? What's up y/n?". I could feel my heart beating out of my chest, "Well, um what do you think of me?" I mumbled , he scooted closer to me " What's that y/n?" he smirks.
I just buried my face in my hands in embarrassment, "NOTHING! NEVERMIN-" he overpowers me and pins my hands over my head, "You gonna just chicken out your opportunity To ask me what I think of you? I think you are really cute y/n.
I Could not stop thinking about you ever since that day i met you y/n. I really like you." He likes me? Oh god, I wanna know more about him.
This isn't me! What the hell! I could feel my face burning up, I tried to avoid eye contact with him. This is embarrassing for him to see me like this. "What the matter y/n? Cat got your tongue?" He cups my face with his right hand gently, then he leans in and kisses me.
Is this what lovers do? The way I am feeling, is it normal to feel this way about someone? He weakens his grip and I sit up, he scoots backwards and starts laughing "You looked like I was gonna kill you! I couldn't avoid my chance to pin you like that!" he chuckled "You fu*kin idiot!" I snatched him by the collar, then I headbutted him "Y/N! WHAT THE HE-" i grabbed his face and kissed him.
In that moment I could really see the details in his pupils. We just sat there looking at each other and I was able to see every texture of his face.
He was bright red, his face was extremely hot; I could feel the warmth on my hands. Then he leaned in and kissed me on the forehead, "Y/N, are you okay?" i rested my arms "Yeah, i wanted to be able to see you closely and i was able to feel closer to you Nny."
he smiled then he cuddled on the couch for what seemed like hours, How come i never was able to be so close to someone my entire life? Were these feelings even necessary for me? I wish I had been able to make friends rather than sticking my face into books.
I slowly drifted off to sleep in Nny's arms.I had woken to some thud noises next door, it had appeared that Nny had covered me in his trench coat, "Nny?" Nothing but silence had answered me, Had he already left? I walked to my bathroom to wash up and I walked back to my couch and picked up my phone, it was already open to phone contacts. Did Nny just add himself to my phone contacts? I clicked on his contact and began to dial his number. I could hear the vibration of a phone in my bedroom, so I walked in the room to see Nny sitting by the window watching outside. He turned towards me "Wakey wakey sleepyhead! It had been 4 hours since you were asleep!" he grinned and I stood by him and looked up in the sky, I never knew how pretty the evenings are here. "Y/N! I got sooo bored while you were sleeping, and you look like you are sooo hungry! Let's go out!" he whimpered; "Uh yeah sure lemme just get my jacket and wallet an-" he threw me my hoodie "Lets go now!!" as he dragged me out of my apartment. Walking down the streets, looking at the little shop windows, I landed my eyes on what seemed like an okay restaurant and I gestured to Nny that I wanted to eat there. He agreed and he placed my arms around his as we entered the restaurant. "Table for two?" a girl waitress asked, nyy answered "Yeah, can you place us by the big window? My girlfriend enjoys the view here." I looked at Nny in surprised expression, "Sure! That is just cute!" she exclaimed then led us to a booth that was placed by the window. "Why did you ask her to seat us by the window?" As I sat down, he turned to look outside, then looked at me and grinned "I just wanted to see you better in the sunset." I could die a happy girl right now! I looked down, and I could tell he enjoyed embarrassing me. The waitress swung by and placed down two glasses of water and placed down menus in front of us "So look through these and i'll come back later okay?" she winked at me and we both giggled then she went to the next table. I glanced at Nny, he looked bothered and upset; in concern I took a sip of water and asked "What wrong Nny? Did something happen?" He glared at me, "Do you know her?' he responded "Well, no? If you were a girl you would tell that we were just joking." he looked more bothered and got up "I-IM GONNA GO TO THE BATHROOM!" and stormed across the restaurant. What did I do to piss him off? He probably misunderstood ,when a different watier came by and said "What can I get you?" "Um, I think I would like to get this." I showed him on the menu "OH, that is a pretty good choice." he glanced at where Johnny was sitting. "Is there another guest?" "Um yeah, he just went to use the restroom." he nodded his head and told me when johnny returns i just need to call him over to take his order. 45 minutes later my food arrived and Johnny had not returned, I think he stood me up. I sighed, the waiter returned and handed me a slice of cheesecake, "For you madam." In confusion I looked up at him. "Um I think you got the wrong person, I didn't order thi-" he interrupted me "This is a gift for you! Where is your date?" I sighed "I think he just stood me up and left, he was probably mad because me and the other waitress had teased each other." he seated himself down "Oh dear, do you think he's gonna come back?". I teared up a little and wiped away " I don't think so, I think he was my boyfriend" I could feel a knot in my throat, then began to cry "Hey, hey, Don't cry! It will be alright! I can hang out with you!" he gets up and comforts me, "I think i wanna move back home, i feel so lonely here. I thought maybe I could make friends here for college." I muttered he hugs me "You're in college? Do you go to the P/n college here?" I lifted my head, turned to him and nodded. He smiled "I'm beginning my classes in a few months! I think I could show you to my friends there!" I smiled and wiped my tears. "Y/N? WHO THE HELL IS THIS?" i was startled and looked up and saw Nny standing there, the waitress stood up to Johnny "The question is, where were you? If you think I was trying to do something, I wasn't. She sat here waiting for you to come back and I came to comfort her because we both assumed you stood her up and left.'' Then the waiter apologized to me then slid a paper to his social media account on instagram under the check to me. Nny finally sits down and glares at me "Why are you crying?" I was silent, finished my meal, stood up and paid for the food and left the restaurant.
I can hear his footsteps approaching me "Y/n!" I turned around to look him in the face "WHAT?" I exclaimed, he asked "Why were you crying?" It irritated me more and I yelled"Because I thought you just got up and left Nny! I sat there for 45 mins waiting for you!" Then I turned around and headed home. As soon as I got back to my apartment I threw my hoodie on the couch and I slammed the door. I sat on the couch, grabbed the tv remote, turned on the tv and collapsed on the couch. Maybe I shouldn't even bother having friends if it causes so many troubles.
