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13: Silent Rains

Hi guys, I'm back again.

This chapter takes place 2 weeks after the previous chapter, and the song for this chapter is yet another desi song - Channa Mereya by Arijit Singh. (the lyrics are translated in the top comment and link is in the comments as usual)

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JUL 846

The morning sky looks colorless. Budding rays of sunlight hide behind thunder clouds. And vultures run around in circles, their piercing cries haunting and ominous.

Thunder reverberates around, and the sounds of teeth clattering amplifies as a result.

"This is a bad omen, vultures are harbingers of death."

"Shut up, it's the weather, that's all it is."

Tension lingers in the atmosphere, as the Survey Corps staff waits at the headquarters' main gate. The soldiers are out for the mission and medics, chefs, maids, are all lined up, praying for their fortunate return.

Shades of gray become silvery as the sound of a thousand taps takes over. The quiet reticence is broken by the sound of people bustling as they run to take cover inside the open corridor.

It's almost the end of July and the first rain of the year. Marking the outset of the monsoon.

Mae stretches her arm outside, into the rain. Pearly beads of water trickle down the back of her hand.

Ivan has already left two days ago. And Mae has resigned as well. She's just waiting here to see if Hange comes back alright from the mission. And bid them a proper farewell.

And she wants to meet Petra as well.

To be honest, she doesn't really want to leave this place. There are wonderful people like Hange and Petra who have been so nice to her. The job is stable and even though the pay isn't much, most of her living expenses are covered by the Survey Corps budget.

But she has to make a choice between the pain in her heart, and her comfortable life in the Survey Corps.

It's been 2 weeks since that incident with Levi, and she hasn't spoken to him ever since. The tables have turned, and now she avoids him as if he is a plague. Now she walks away every time he steps into the room.

The events of that day feel like a distant memory. Sometimes she wonders if Levi really did that and berated her as he held her up by the collar.

After all, it was her Levi. The same Levi who gave her food when she had nothing to eat. And who gave her a shoulder to cry on when she was left all alone in this world.

And if it wasn't for him, she would have probably killed herself, because only she knows how lonely and miserable she felt after her parent's death.

How could he of all people do that to her? How could someone be so double faced? How could someone fake their concern and emotions to this extent?

Humiliation, anger, disgust , distress, she felt it all that day. And it is indeed ironic that her feelings for him are still relentless. They seep into every thought and interrupt her every action.

Ever present in the chambers of her mind, and shattering her heart in the most ruthless ways possible.

It's embarrassing how much she still pines for him. He literally told her to never show him her 'disgusting' face again. He lashed out at her, he lifted her up by the collar. Even when it wasn't her fault.

Then how could her stupid excuse of a heart still want him, when he has spoken out loud, how much he despises her. How could her heart still want her to forget all that he has done, and run back to him. Does she have no pride? Is this how despicable she really is?