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14: Hopeless Fools

Okay so I'm back! 

This chapter takes place 3 weeks after the previous chapter. As in 3 weeks after Mae left the Survey Corps. Also I have proofread this chapter in a hurry, so if there are any typos or grammatical errors please do tell me about it.

The song for this chapter is the wisps song- by winter aid. I hope you guys like it!

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AUG 846

Levi tries his best to not tap his feet in nervousness, as he sits in the Commander's office. His hands are crossed and his legs are crossed as well. And he subtly wipes his palms on his jacket to hide the sweat has seeped through his skin.

And obviously, his signature frown adorns his face to complete the look.

It is Sunday, and even though Erwin's counseling sessions had stopped right after Levi became a captain. Today he is here because he needs it.

His brows are furrowed and the tip of his ears turn pink, as the question asked rings through his head. Do you want to be her lover?

"I don't want to be her stupid lover. I just want her to be happy and have a good life, keep her away from all the shittiness of the world," He feigns annoyance as he speaks, and the frown on his face intensifies

"Oh! So you want to be her protector then?" Erwin stifles a chuckle, trying his hardest to keep a straight face.

"You're having fun with this aren't you?" Levi grumbles, his glare throwing daggers at Erwin.

"Well, this is the first time you are actually taking our sessions seriously." He leans forward, resting his elbows on the table, as he looks at Levi with a perceptive gaze.

Levi has changed. He's gotten snappier and it takes him longer to do his paperwork. His body is always alert and he can still sense anyone coming at him, but his mind is lost in thought. Like something is always tugging at his mind, his emotions, his everything. As if something is crippling him from the inside.

And one can see how he's cracking under the pressure, with how his eyes are tinged red at the corner, and how sloppy he has gotten with his paperwork due to his constant exhaustion.

And even though Levi hasn't told him what's bothering him yet, Erwin already knows what it is.

"You are a useless little piece of shit," Levi sneers and he pushes his chair back. " I'm leaving." And as he stands up, he prays in his head that Erwin calls him back inside, because only Levi knows how helpless he actually feels.

It is pathetic, the situation he is in. But he has no choice, he feels stranded in the current of his thoughts and the deserted plains of his mind. Like a direction-less wanderer, parched and looking for shade, from the overbearing sun that he never seems to escape.

"Okay, okay wait, I'm sorry" Erwin mutters and his steps halt as he breathes in a sigh of relief

Erwin clears his throat, and a serious expression takes over his face, "She's gone now and probably married too... The chances of the both of you getting together are negligible. But if the guilt is eating you alive, then you should find her and apologize. You were horrible to her Levi, and she was a good friend of yours. At least end it on good terms."

She's gone now, the words reiterate in Levi's head.

He remembers waking up in the warm hospital ward, with weakness in his body and the constant ache that throbbed around his waist. And he knew the moment, he smelled the scent of lavender lingering on his bandages that Mae was here.