Looks & Feelings

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~Catalina POV~
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I was just sitting there in class, second period to be exact. My head down, as always. My English teacher walked up to where I was sitting and he tapped on my desk, at the same time, giving me a hand gesture to put my head up. I told him "Sorry. I'm just not feeling too good right now." He said to me with his soft-toned yet demanding voice "Would you like to go to the nurse?" "No. I'm fine" I said trying to stay as calm as I could. Only 2 minutes of class left. I was sitting next to Alex & Krista. Alex is always being bad in class, always making sounds to annoy the teacher, but Krista, barely ever talked, and when she does, it's just her complaining about the loud kids in class while she is trying to read the book that was assigned to us for groups. The teacher said "Alright, bye guys." I gathered all of my stuff and held it as close to my face as possible so nobody could see me. Until I passed Drew, he was just staring at me like I was from another planet. I didn't bother looking back at him, it makes my anxiety build up if we're looking at each other. I walked as fast as I could down the hallways and down the steps. The next period I have is Spanish. Which is one of my worst subjects. I walked into class and looked at the assignment in the small red box. It just said Turn To Page 218 and I followed the teacher's instructions. I walked up to my seat, slamming my work onto my desk. The boys that sit behind me looked at me funny, I didn't care though, I never do. But when Drew looks at me, it makes me feel uncomfortable. I put the folders I didn't need into the desk and took out the Spanish textbook. I turned to page 218 and looked closely at the page. It didn't say to do anything, so I just sat there. The teacher looked up a video off of YouTube and showed it to the class. It was telling us Spanish, like always. But let's get true here, it's obvious that's what we're going to learn every class. Finally, one of my friends Cassidy came in and sat in the seat next to me, her assigned seat. She doesn't follow the rules very good, neither do I often, but today I just don't feel like talking. By the end of the period, we started to gather our stuff and get ready for lunch. She said "Alright guys you can all go now." I grabbed my stuff and zoomed out of the room. I walked into the cafeteria and put the stuff I needed down, which included my English book because I love reading it and my zebra printed pencil case. Then I went to my locker and took out the other stuff I needed. I also grabbed my lunchbox. I don't know why I grabbed it, I didn't want it. When I walked into the lunchroom, I sat down at the table I always sit at with my friends. But most of them weren't there. So, I sat with one of my friends Rose. We just talked about my issues. My anxiety disorder, the many anxiety attacks I've had this day. There he was, at the table he always sits at. The one across the room, yet right next to us. Drew was looking at me again. Sometimes, I just want to ask him why he is always looking at me but I don't things to be weird, yet, everything is weird already. I gave away all of my lunch, every bit of it. I just didn't feel like eating this day, just this day. Lunch was over. I went to math, but it was just the same stuff we always do. But when I got to my 6th period, I was in pain. So much of it, my anxiety started hurting my breathing. Nobody even noticed what was going on with me. Like, really? You don't see me having an attack right now? Science was over, but my attack continued. I was walking out of the door to science and I was so close to bumping into Drew. I said very quietly "Sorry" and kept walking. Then I asked my friend Skye "Will you be mad at me if I told you I gave away all of my lunch?" She looked at me like I was insane. Drew turned around when I said it. I don't get it. Is he worried about me? Or does he just think I'm weird? I'm not sure what to think anymore.