Looks & Feelings

four

In the second day of the op-out, I just sat with Carson and Victoria. The teacher started teaching us an art lesson. We just ignored the lesson and started talking. I started writing notes to Carson about Drew. Drew got up and walked over to get something, as he walked behind me I felt him touch my back a little bit. I took a deep breath and looked down into my book to write another note to Carson. I wrote that Drew's smile and laugh is cute. One of the tables in the room started talking trash about me. It made me upset so I just kept quiet and put my head down. I can't stop thinking about Drew. I like him, I think, maybe even more than like. The period was over and we all left, so he only looked at me once today, so far. I still have home etc later today with him. I might ask him but I'm too scared. I hate the fact that people I thought were my friends, don't like me anymore for some sort of reason. They don't care about my issues as much as Carson or Victoria does. Carson and I were sitting in science doing out work. Our teacher was yelling at some students in the class, meanwhile, Carson was copying my work. She slapped someone in the face earlier, but she didn't get in trouble. I made it to home etc and Drew asked me to get some food for him that the teacher made. So I got it for him and gave it to him. Then he said "Thanks" and the girls in the class said "Ew, you're his maid now!" I just kept walking and sat on the table with Victoria and his friend. I felt awkward sitting in class now. The period was just about over and I grabbed my stuff and left. I walked to my locker with Cassidy and Drew was walking in front of us, slowly. I was going to ask him to walk faster but I didn't want to be rude to him. The day was finally over, I left my locker and got onto my bus and the bus driver drove me home.