Become So Tired || Seongjoong

The park with the Park's

Hongjoong was aggressively pacing back and forth across the worn living room carpet as he hoped to relieve some of the great building stress. When Hongjoong had agreed to Seonghwa's offer of spending time with the pups the alpha had foolishly hoped it would lessen the load he was carrying. However it appeared to only increase the concern he already had. Yesterday afternoon Hongjoong had texted Seonghwa, setting a time for Sunday morning where Seonghwa would join the alpha and the pups at the local park.

So why was Hongjoong continuously feeling nervous about it? Everything was positive in the interactions. But yet he had a great fear about trusting the omega with his pups and them growing too attached to him. If Seonghwa eventually betrayed Hongjoong or turned his back from them, the pups could possibly be heart broken – in fact he could guarantee they will be heartbroken.

Currently the pups were playing with some toys in their room together. They were set to leave in a couple minutes – but Hongjoong was hopeful he could put it off a little longer. Retrieving his phone from his pocket he swiped to call Maddox. He needed the elder in this situation. Naturally he could contact Mingi or Yunho or even Jongho. But he didn't want to put that weight on them anymore than he already had.

"Someone better be dead or dying" a grumpy, tired voice stated through the phone. Maddox was far from a morning person – at least on a Sunday. He was a strong believer that Sunday was the day of rest – and that Saturday was a day of pre rest. The beta gave a deep groan as the bed creaked beneath him.

"Am I making the right decision?" Hongjoong burst out. He had reframed from continuing his pacing and instead took a seat on the edge of the couch armband. He was bouncing his leg slightly.

"Only you can answer that" Maddox replied with another deep groan. He gave a low yawn – a clear sign that he was beginning to awaken. The bed gave another creak, as he must have moved to get out.

"I know that the pups need an omega in their lives" Hongjoong began his rant. "The doctor had made that very clear. If I want to stand a chance of getting Youngseok to feel comfortable and decrease his stress levels than he needs a consistent omega to view as a guide and look to for support. I wish I could give the pups that comfort myself. But in this case for once I cant. I need to rely on someone else. I hate doing that. You know how much I hate putting my problems and difficulties on another person."

"Oh I'm well aware" Maddox mumbled and Hongjoong just knew he was rolling his eyes.

Hongjoong let out a low whimper. To him this wasn't a time for jokes. The alpha was seriously concerned. He didn't know if he could trust the omega. He clearly didn't have a good judgement of character in the past. "I'm trying to be serious here Maddox."

"Answer the video call" Maddox answered through the phone. Shortly after the phone vibrated. Pulling it back Hongjoong noticed the video chat request coming through. He sighed slightly in relief and answered it thankfully.

"You're lucky I love you" Maddox mumbled as he appeared on the screen. The beta still had ruffled hair and appeared to be in nothing more than his boxers. What caught Hongjoong's attention though was instantly drawn towards the marks across Maddox's neck. Perhaps the alpha had interrupted more than the beta sleeping.

Sighing heavily Hongjoong finally claimed a seat on the couch. "Thank you hyung" he breathed out.

"Every single omega is not identical. You cannot put wolves into comfortable little boxes based on their sub gender. You know that better than anyone." Maddox leaned back in the headboard. Although the man was clearly dead tired, he was still extremely wise. "Think of it this way. You hate that as an alpha other people judge you based on that. You have been put in positions where you have been criticized for being a single alpha, told that you cant raise your pups right, that they cannot be supported because you can't get a solid job. The second someone says you are incompetent based on being a single unmated alpha; you will do everything to prove them wrong.