once again, i watched you look at her like.. i never existed.
>lowercase intended
>BOOK 2 OF ONE SIDED!! PLEASE READ THAT FIRST BEFORE YOU READ THIS ONE!
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everything is wrong.
this wasn't supposed to happen. why am i here sitting with you? why am i smiling?
am i crazy?
"is something wrong jayeong?"
i turned out of my daze and shook my head at you, "it's nothing." i said with a smile.
after mina left you picked me up off the ground and we left.
i could barely even process what was happening so i could barely remember but.. why?
why am i not home crying that you just got married? why am i here laughing with an unmarried you?
i took another bite of my steak and looked up at you.
"jungkook-ah."
"mhm?" you had this stare, this stare that everything was gonna be alright.
as long as i'm with you everything was gonna be alright.
you said that to me once. and now i know that look when you want to say it again.
"i'm sorry. for everything. i'm a terrible person. i shouldn't have run into you. i should've made myself clearer than day that i didn't want anything to do with you and i should've left back to the states. i've ruined your life... i-"
"you didn't ruin anything jayeong. even when you were gone all those years i didn't just stop thinking about you. you were and are a big part of my life no matter how much i deny it over and over again. you made me who i am today. you were my motivation. no matter how much 'i love yous' i said to mina, i knew deep down that wasn't true.
you were always there jayeong. even when i didn't see you. even when i started to forget your voice... you were always there."
"jungkook-"
"please don't tell me that i'm wrong... please just for once jayeong can you let me be right?"
you stood up from the table and came over to sit by my side.
you pulled my hands into your lap and held them tightly.
"when i saw you at the hotel i went crazy. i couldn't believe for one second that it was you but when you spoke that voice i was forgetting became clear as day.
