Twogether {JJK}

Nine

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i wanted to cry. no. that was an understatement.

i wanted to collapse. maybe that was better.

i watched your world light up as the priest talked and was getting closer to the rings and I Do's.

i sat with my back straight and my nails digging under the nails in my other hand as i watched you not even peek around.

i was squeezing my hand bag and was fighting back tears.

why was i holding on to you for so long? why couldn't i just convince myself that there was no us.

that there was no us... ever.

there was never an us. it's always been you and mina... always.

i finally turned to look at mingi and he smiled brightly at you and mina.

i was alone in this.

no one else wanted to break down and dig a hole and bury themselves in it.

maybe your parents were crying but that was because they finally get to see their son with someone he truly loves.

my stomach was so tightened it felt like i was going to throw up.

i looked over and mingi and went to his ear.

"i have to go to the bathroom."

he nodded and continued to stare at you and mina.

i put my hang bag on my shoulder and quickly scurried out of the reception.

i took a huge breath in before asking one of the people that were preparing the feast where the bathroom was.

the lady pointed and i quickly ran down there.

i opened the door and locked it once i got inside.

i could finally cry.

i cried.

and cried.

and cried and cried until i heard a knock at the door.

"is anyone in there i have to use the bathroom."

"just go find a different one." i spat back before crying once again.