Endlessly - Eren x Reader

Chapter 4 - Past

4 years prior

We are juniors in high school, urged to pick a career for the rest of our years, urged to pick a school to attend as soon as we graduate, and urged to move forward with our lives. But what do I want to do?

The brunette boy ponders but is quickly interrupted by you.

"What do you wanna do today?" Your smile was as warm as ever.

Eren doesn't hesitate to answer you. "Whatever you want." He smiles.

You had been beside each other for most of high school, of course, you still hung out with your friends, but for most of the time, it was just you two, you both liked it a lot.

"I wanna go to the beach, it's so lovely out today." You take ahold of his arm and wrap your body around it. "Would you like to do that?" You ask softly.

Your soft voice was music to Erens ears, he loved the way you spoke, the way you held him and touched him, the little things you did to express your love for him, he loved all of it.

"You wanna invite the others?" He asks softly in return.

"It doesn't matter." You reply. "As long as you're with me."

Secretly whenever you responded like that, it made him happy, he always wanted you all to himself, little did he know it made you equally as happy, because you never wanted anyone else to witness the small, special moments you had with Eren.

This year in particular, was the best yet... for both of you.

In tenth grade, you momentarily split, Eren knew he was the reason, and he knew there were things he needed to work on, it wasn't his intention to split with you but eventually he learned it needed to happen.

He gained new experiences from his time away from you, and you him, and in the long run you were both able to return to exactly where you left off. This time however your emotions and understanding of each other were stronger, you had more physical desires, mental clarity, you both truly felt like it was you against the world.

It was good.

"So, beach?" You lightly squeeze his forearm that was wrapped in between yours.

Eren wouldn't tell you this, but he never cared for the beach, every time he went with his family or other friends, he was reminded about how small he was in the world, and how many people resided just beyond the rippling horizon. He felt insignificant, and it made him insecure, how could he have been born here, and lived these years, and met all of the people he's met, and got so damn lucky to have ended up by your side?

It scared him, but amazed him at the same time. Whenever he was reminded about the giant world ahead of him, he thought about how different things could've been, like if he had never met you.

Now that was terrifying.

"Yea let's go." He replies happily.

But alas, you wished to visit the beach, so he bit his tongue and followed behind you, joyfully. He had faith that wherever he went with you, whatever made him feel small, you'd allow him to feel bigger.

You liked touch, the sensation of being close, it reminded you that this was reality. Eren liked being touched, specifically by you, he liked that your love language was being near him, using him as a reminder that you weren't dreaming.