Trans dsmp oneshots

Trans!Tubbo (ftm) - goofy faces

Warnings: gender dysphoria, swearing, panic attack, thoughts of being trans is just a phase, trying to convince themselves that they're just a girl. If i missed any, let me know please :)

Tubbo's pov

Today has been absolute shit. I've struggled with so much gender dysphoria. And it doesn't make it better with the fact that Ranboo is here and has been worried about me all day. At least he knows that I'm trans, i just don't think he knows the details of it.

Dumb gender. Being born a girl is the fucking worst for me. How am i supposed to pass as a boy when i have two tits on my chest?

I'm so scared that ever since i told everyone that i was trans, that they just think of me as some tomboy now, instead of an actual boy. I mean, born a girl always a girl, right? What if i'm actually just some stupid little girl who thinks that she's a boy. It must be a phase, right? I'm a girl and will always be a girl. So why does being referred to as a girl hurt so much? (Just so y'all know, if you're questioning if it's a phase than it's most likely not. You all are valid:) no matter if you experience little amounts of dysphoria or large amounts of dysphoria, you are valid.)

"Shit-" i whispered as i realised that there were tears running down my face. "Calm down Tubs, it's just some stupid thoughts" i said while trying to contain my sobs. Well that did certainly not calm me down.

I could feel that it's getting harder to breathe, It felt like i was drowning. My heart was pounding and i was trembling. At this point, I couldn't contain my tears and sobs anymore. I began sobbing loudly as i tried to uselessly calm myself.

I was sobbing so loudly that i didn't hear the footsteps coming towards my room.

Ranboo's pov

What was that noise? Did that come from Tubbo's room?

*sob*

Okay that definitely came from Tubbo's room. Is he alright?

I sat there for a few moments deciding if i should go see if he was okay. Fuck it. The sobs are getting louder, there is no possibility that he is okay.

I got up from the couch and walked to Tubbo's room. Honestly i had been worried about him all day, he hadn't come out of his room and he had denied every time i asked if i could come into his room.

I got to Tubbo's room and knocked on the door. No answer. Just more sobs. I opened the door to find Tubbo with tears streaming down his face, breathing heavily and sobbing very loudly.

He was having a panic attack.

"Oh god-" I say panicking because i had no idea what to do. i quickly get over to Tubbo and try to think of a solution.

"Tubs? Are you alright? Can you hear me?" I say, desperately trying to think of ways to calm him down. Of course he's not okay, you idiot. He's having a panic attack.

Tubbo looked up at me and immediately looked down again, probably because of embarrassment that i saw him in this state. "Uh Hey Tubs, please look at me" i say. God i'm awkward.

Tubbo looks up at me while still sobbing and crying. I immediately try to think of some way to make him laugh or at least smile.

I start making weird and goofy faces to try and make him laugh. And i'm pretty sure it worked because he stopped sobbing and started giggling a little bit. I continue making goofy faces until he just bursts out laughing.

After some seconds he stops laughing, wipes his tears away and smiles a little bit. "Thanks Ran.." he say quietly but loud enough for me to hear. "It's no problem. Can i hug you?" I ask. Tubbo nods.

I pull him into a hug and he quickly hugs back. We both pull away after a few seconds. "Sooo... wanna go to the park and laugh at kids who fall?" I say with a smirk. "Always" Tubbo says and laughs.

A/N: Hello. it's been a while, hasn't it? Anyways I hope you have had a good day and enjoyed this oneshot. This oneshot (as well as my other oneshots) is not proofread btw.