girls do it better GXG (18+)

abandoned lot

Devon POV 

Its 7am and were in the car. She never leaves this early. Shes doing this just to spite me because she knows i hate waking up early. But to make her even more upset i have a smile plastered onto my face. 

The windows are opened and wind blows our hair around. The wind pisses me off and i press the button rolling it up. She turns her head lightly but without taking her eyes fully off the road. She glares at me and rolls it back down. When her hand is removed from the switch i roll it back up. 

"devon piss off" 

She flicks the child control and locks them on the open setting. 

"i dont like the wind this early" 

"awh is it too early for someone" 

"oh shut up already nadia" 

i scoff and look out at nothing in particular as we speed down the highway towards a particularly undesireable neighbourhood of the gta

I give nadia the cold shoulder and silent treatment as we get off the highway and travel down a dreary empty road. In the distance is a police siren and nadia attempts to break the tension. 

"uh oh looks like the police are after us" 

she smacks her knee at her own very awful dad joke. I merely glance to her with an unamused look before returning my gaze to the road ahead of us. She shakes her head with a sharp exhale and tightens her jaw. 

As we pull into the parking lot of a deteriorating building I ignore her burning stare. Nadia pulls the car to a halt and snatches the keys out of the ignition before turning to face me. I look straight ahead not caring to have this argument. 

"what. What is it devon" 

"nothing, you just disregard everything i say." 

"disregard? Are you serious? Devon im sick of this. What do you even want from me?"
 

"what are you talking about i dont want anything from you." 

"youre a cunt, you know that?" 

"ouh scary words from such a small person." 

"point proven devon. You do this every single time we start to get close. I let my feelings show, which i dont do easily. But for you? Im willing to try. I- i dont even know what to say. You are so mean to me. Why. Why do you treat me so poorly. And after last night! Everyday is the same. I come home to you, we work together. We have dinner, go to the same bed! I jus-" 

"why am i mean to you? Grow some thicker skin nadia. And last night?? Its not like youre the only girl ive finger banged for christ sake. Do you expect me to play wifey all day for you? Make sure dinner is steaming hot when you walk in the door and laundry is neatly folded for you?" 

She is just baffled at my words. Nadia is too naive. She looks at me with hurt in her eyes and it sets off the slightest bit of guilt but it disapears quickly. This morning when i woke up with her asleep on my chest it gave me two thoughts. Firstly, ow my boob. Secondly, what have i gotten myself into? A little bit of help from some girl and now im playing barbie dream house with her? My goal in life is to survive. To take care of myself and focus on what I need. What i dont need is some whiny girl. 

I cant let my feelings get involved in this because ive done this before. Not with a relationship but in other senses. I used to let myself care way too easily. It made it harder when people left. Or died. My entire family has died. I was actually with my older sister when she died. We were in a car crash. She was driving and we were t-boned by a truck that ran a red. She didnt even make it to the hospital. She was 21 and i was 16. Mom passed from cancer when i was 13 and shortly thereafter my father killed himself. He was a coward. Our mother died! and he was so weak that he left behind his two kids. My sister Jordan was 18 at the time and she was able to get custody of me instead of me being put into the foster system. 

We managed. That was for three years until that day we were driving home from grocery shopping. It wasnt even that busy. It was a peaceful quiet late night drive- until it wasnt. So no, I dont get attatched easily. 

"why do you feel the constant need to push me away, i just want to be there for you"

"and im telling you, I. Dont. Want. You. Do i have to spell it for you? Nadia i dont know what your obsession with me is, but you need to drop it." 

"My obsession! Thats it. Im done. I wont let you hurt me anymore. Get your things out of my apartment and be gone by the time im home." 

"what? are you serious"

"do you expect us to live together as roomates? I cant deal with you. I have lived through enough bullshit and pain that i do not need you to add onto it. So get your shit out of my place. Call a damn uber. I dont even want to look at you" 

she stares out the window while tears roll down her cheeks 

"nadia im sorry i didnt mean to-"

"get out. Get out of my car. Get out of my life!" 

she raises her voice and it cracks a little showing her strong emotion. 

"What about Jackson" 

"ill email you with any new information i have. You do the same. Be careful i guess, i dont know what you want me to say. What do you want to hear from me in this situation?"

she swipes a tear away 

"nadia i didnt mean anything i said im s-"

"I dont want to hear anymore of your empty apologies because they are just that. Empty. You will hurt me again and again. Now get out of my car before i make you" 

she clenches her fists and grits her teeth at me holding back her emotion. I nod solemly before getting out of the car. She rolls down the window a smidgen and she gives a really sad smile 

"call the uber. Im not leaving till youre safe" 

My heart sinks and i pull out my phone and I call up the uber. 2 mins out. Thank fuck

"how pathetic of me, to not be able to leave until i know youre safe" 

her window rolls back up and i watch as tears silently stream down her face. I seriously fucked up. 

A car pulls up into the lot before rolling down a window 

"jessica?" 

"mhm thats me" 

I hop into their car. I have a fake name on my uber account with one of my credit cards. I buckle in and look out the window at her car as we pull out of the lot. She hangs her head in her hands and sobs wrack her body. 

Fuck.