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Pain management 🔥 🔥

Nadia POV 

my leg throbs and so does my head. Its been a few hours since I woke up and I can still sort of feel the drugs wearing off. Devons been holding me this entire time and I feel so safe in her arms, yet all i can think about is how much i want to run. 

Not from her, but with her. I cant stay in toronto. I have too many people that know about me and what I do. I need to get out... and I dont think i can live without devon. 

I groan slightly as I try to sit up and devon helps me up. 

"Whats wrong nadia?" 

She looks really worried. I guess I never have been good at hiding my emotions. 

"I cant stay here"

"What? Why? If you want we can go to my apartment but I dont see what the difference is. He's dead, and yeah farrah or whatever her name was might still be alive, youre safe. Were safe."

I can see the defensive change of tone in her facial expression and I realize that she must still be reeling in what happened. I was hurt, kidnapped, and hurt again. She felt like she didnt protect me but thats not true. Shes my savior. 

"Woah not like that dev, im thinking that this isnt for me. This is one big mess that i never want to put myself into again. I cant keep killing people even if they are awful. We need to do something because being with you sped up my timeline. I imagined that i would keep doing this until i couldnt anymore, but I dont want to. I want a stupid domestic life with no threats."

Her face relaxes 

"oh."

I take her hand in mine and grasp it tightly, pulling it in to my chest. Her palm rests over my heartbeat and she lets her eyes fall shut as if shes remembering im okay. 

"Devon I wouldnt be here if it werent for you" 

"Yea but you also wouldnt be here if it werent for me. I got you into this mess all because I was a bitch."

"I dont believe that. Jackson had his plan. Maybe in some other universe he managed to kill us both off before we even met"

She leans forward and the tension in the room grows thick and viscous like honey. 

Slowly, devon moves closer and closer to my lips. Resting just apart from them I can feel her hot breath. 

"I never would have let that happen. I dont believe theres a world where i dont get tortured with knowing you" 

I lean forward and our lips connect softly for a single kiss before I pull back. 

"tortured?"

"nadia when you werent waking up after a few days I honestly wished that if you didnt wake up then I didnt either. I care about you so fucking much it hurts." 

this triggers a tug on my heart. She was that worried? 

Having more courage from her latest proclamation i take a chance 

"run away with me" 

She raises her eyebrows and her face emotes confusion. 

"What?"

"Im done with killing people. Killing others is slowly killing me. I cant do it. And the only thing holding me here in toronto is you. I have nobody. I have nothing. I want to be selfish and ask you to come with me"

Her hand raises to my cheek and cups my face ever so gently. 

"Nadia its not even a fucking question. I will follow you to the ends of the earth if it means getting to spend one more day with you. I dont know why, I dont know how, but we are connected. When im with you i feel more alive than I have in years. When youre in the same room I feel like im on fire. All i can think about is your skin on mine. My body pinning you down. Your lips brushing against my own. "