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blissful

Devons Pov 

I feel like absolute shit. I dont want to do anything. I feel like an awful person. Why cant i just let myself be happy. I need to move on from her because if i dont, then im going to work my way into her life and end up getting us both hurt even more. 

I dont want to work. Its not like i need the money but i cant exactly walk away when jackson is trying to be the sole network of assasins. I may not be a good person or have a good conscience like nadia but i do have some decency. 

I end up watching old jeopardy re runs on youtube all day. I have found out all there is to find out about jackson. I do have alot of info on him and his crew but i cant actually do anything until i heal. It doesnt help that i havent been sleeping well. Everytime i close my eyes i see nadia sobbing in her car. 

She looked so frail and breakable. Weve all been through heavy shit but who knew that i would be the thing that broke her. I really hope shes gonna be okay. 

I have to stop fucking thinking of her. 

To distract myself i decide to go for a drive. I drive out to jacksons home and watch for the day. His girlfriend leaves and i gotta say, DAMN. Shes tall with dark hair. She comes outside in a dress and heels on the phone yelling at someone before she frantically got in her car and drove away. She drives like a twat. You can tell a persons level of intelligence by the way they drive and nothing screams valley girl like a buick SUV that skirts away with the sound of squeaking rubber. 

I can basically smell the frappuchino from here. Maybe pumpkin spice? I giggle thinking to myself. 

Shes gone and i dont know for how long, hes gone for a bit. Its 530 and this house is at least 45 minutes away from his HQ. I take my chances. I watched him leave a key under a specific rock in his garden so now i just need to figure out which one it was. I hobble my way over and start to look. All of the rocks look like rocks so i pick them up one by one until i find one that isnt as heavy. 

Aha!

got it. I grab the key and quietly put it into the lock just in case somebody else is home. when i open the door im greeted by what looks like a regular suburban home. Beige painted walls, welcome mat, key hanger etc. I go into the main parlour. Ew i hate myself. Parlour? Really? 

I go into the living room and once again it looks normal. I snoop around, running my hands along the insides of lamps, under tables, across shelves etc, just trying to find anything that will give me insight into this man. 

I go around the house relatively bored until i find his medicine cabinet. Oh this could be fun. I dont want them to know im here... but i cant resist it. I open it up and find a prescription bottle with his name on it and a recent date... he still uses it. Its for heartburn. I grab the bottle of ex-lax and switch out the pills. Heartburn and diarhhea? try killing me now while shitting yourself. poopy pants. 

I check my watch and realize ive been here for too long. Its already 605, hell be home soon and so will she. I quickly make my way through the house until i find his office. On his desk are many files. I click open his computer and it was left unlocked. Dumb dumb. I click on recent tabs and it takes me to a folder. Fuck. 

"nadia" 

the folder is labled nadia. 

In this folder is pictures of her, her address, and text screenshots of her and someone else. Fuck its on bumble and shes planning on meeting this person tonight. In less than an hour. If i gas it, i can be at her place in 20. The screenshots dont say what restaurant. Just the time.

 I book it out of his house and when i slam the door behind me i catch the attention of the neighbours. He looks at me strangely and i realize i cant give myself up so i slow down and put the key back under the rocks. 

I really hope i never have to do this accent in front of anyone i know. I put on my best southern belle accent. 

"hey yall! sorry for the loud bang haha"

the neighbour walks across the lawn towards me suspiciously

"hmm, who are you" 

"who me? awh im just jackies sister. He's always forgetting his IBS medicine at mama's so i figured i would drop it by. Hes so insecure about it! Told me to leave it in his fridge so the MRS wouldnt find it. Bless his soul" 

the neighbour looks uncomfortable and laughs awkwardly

"jackie?"

"awh shoot. I overshared didnt i" 

i slap my hand to my forhead

"jackie... jackson. My bad doll. Hey dont go tellin jackie about this. He would have my head on a silver platter if he knew i was goin round town tellin folks about his tummy issues" 

"oh of course not miss, You have my word" 

he offers me a sweet smile and i return it. I finish putting the key back before scurrying off to nadias.

 After blasting down the highway at a speed that definetly should have gotten me arrested, i arrive at her apartment. 630. I book it up the stairs as fast as i can despite my injuries and when i make it to her door i pound on it. I listen and hear nothing. Grabbing the spare key from under the mat, i go in and find her apartment as if she just left. Makeup on the table, outfits on her bed, tea cup still warm. 

Fucking hell. 

I run out of her apartment locking it behind me and rush out onto the street. I jog to the nearest subway in hopes of spotting her along the way. Just at i think its over and im too late i see her going into the station. Headphones in, wearing a cute yellow sundress and white cardigan. Shes beautiful. 

I call her name loudly but she doesnt even flinch. Shes probably got her music blasting 

"nadia!!!!"

I race after her but shes too far ahead. She walks pretty fast for a small person. She taps her presto card and passes through the turnstile and i realize that i forgot mine at home. I rustle up a pocketful of change and drop it into the box for the inspector to let me through. By the time he does, she is down the stairs out of sight. I can hear the train pulling into the station. no no no no 

I sprint forward yelling her name 

"NADIA!!"

 she doesnt hear me. Im flying down the stairs. When i hit the bottom step, the doors close and i watch with despair as she walks through the train car blissfully as it drives away. 

OUUUUUU cliffhangerrrrr. Next chapter is rlly good, i wrote it like last week when i got the idea. Its longer and i think youll like it. Ill post in the morning, i have a class that goes till 11 so it should be up before noon! Beware the next one is a cliffhanger as well so buckle in boo. Night night everyone <3 sorry for the heartbreak im about to cause