girls do it better GXG (18+)

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Devon POV 

My fingers run along nadias bare arm as we stare at eachother in bliss. We just finished having sex and were both currently basking in the afterglow. 

"where"

She tilts her head and gives a confused look

"where what?" she says

"Where do you want to go? Where do you want to live?" 

The look in her eyes is a sad realization. 

"we can... leave. Wow. I never thought I would say that" she murmurs

My heart aches for the nadia that thought she would be stuck killing people for the rest of her life. 

"Nadia, you never have to kill another person for your entire life. We can put this behind us and start a new life togtether" 

I search her face for clues on how shes feeling but she just looks dazed. 

"I never thought I would get out. I thought I would be killing people until I eventually was the one to get killed" 

My fingers trail down the peach fuzz along her jawline with the back of my knuckles. 

"Oh love." 

She looks to me with tears in her eyes and rests her head on my chest. Her back jerks slightly as she cries. Her sobs are quiet and I know in this moment theres nothing i can say or do to take away the guilt of all the people shes killed. I learned how to cope but some of us just shut that part off and its okay if youre in it for life, but now that shes not? Its all crashing down on her. 

"I k-killed so m-many!" 

I feel her tears falling onto me and her arms wrap around my waist as if ill float away. 

"Shhh, shhh youre okay darling" I say in a comforting tone

My one hand rests on her shoulder while the other is in her hair, gently playing with the soft locks in an attempt to ground her. 

"You did what you had to do to survive and we will spend the rest of our lives healing from that. But thats the point darling" 

She sniffles "what?"

"We have the rest of our lives to heal. Our long long lives. I plan on growing old with you nadia. I want to be your forever" 

This causes a small mewling sob to escape her mouth. 

"Youll a-always be my for-forever" 

She struggles to get her words out between gasps of breath from crying but I understand what shes saying. 

We stay like this until her crying calms down and shes just breathing deeply now. Breaking the silence I offer

"Ive always wanted to see greece" 

I feel her smile slightly against me and sure enough when I look down her eyes are closed but a small smile plays across her lips 

"We could go to the island from mamma mia" 

"Oh lord" I chuckle

"I wanna visit there, i dont think thats where i want to live. Ive always had this fascination with france. What do you think?"

Pondering for a moment, i answer 

"I dont want to live in a city if thats what youre asking. If we were to move to france I would want to live on the countryside where the houses are so far apart you cant even walk to ask for a cup of sugar."