Heart on ice

05

I shambled along the park side intoxicated

Me and Victoria had slept together again and she injected me for fifty buc-
Is that Elle?

I ducked behind the nearest building and hid she was talking to some man is a black van
What the fuck is she doing out this late... Wait is that Keith?? And he was being awfully touchy with her and she looked super uncomfortable. I came out of my hiding spot to see what the hell was going on "what the fuck Keith stay the hell away from her and Elle what the hell are you doing do you know how dangerous he is?!"

She looked at me and scoffed "he's selling to me" no the fuck he isn't "You don't do drugs Elle you've never even smoked a blunt probably never even touched a vape In your entire life and Keith fuck off bro"

He backed up and drove off "how do you know him?" She whispered "What the hell are you doing" she took a deep breath before speaking "I thought if I changed maybe you'd want to be with me.. I see Victoria around school..... she's hot, she parties and everyone envy's her and then there's me the preppy, annoying and clingy girl in love with 'the hot emo chick' when I saw you and Victoria come out the same stall my heart shattered and I realized you could never love some school girl like me-" I stopped her off with a kiss

This fucking cheesy shit "Elle the reason I can't be in a relationship is because I'm a druggy and a bad influence I don't wanna ruin your future because I don't want to have mine and on top of that I'm a fucking whore the only reason I know who Keith is because I'm fucking him for money to live and that's why you've never met my parents I live on my own I don't deserve you at all"

She still looked at me the same way she did before. no nose scrunches. No eyes of pity.
"Kayla... I still love you though" I let go of her hands

"Then don't"